people is sometimes kind
you know what i just realized that reaffirmed my college choice? if i had chosen bard, i would have had to go out there at the BEGINING of august. that would have sucked.
im really starting to look forward to doing things like choosing classes, and buying stuff for my dorm room, and meeting my roommate and having a facebook, so i really hope they let me go next year. i sent off my FYI(thats what they call first year seminars) request thing today. by which i mean, i put it out to get sent off tomorrow. i woke up too late and missed the actual mail. maybe ill go to the post office.
i finished my book, and now i think i want to read the symposium, but im a little scared to start. all i know is, im gonna be all done reading books by july 16, because thats when HP6 come out!!! im very excited.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:58 PM |

 
it seems the time of parenthood is upon us
dad asked me this morning what i was going to "do" with my summer. sigh. i feel so useless.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:35 PM |

 
youre what happens when two substances collide
speaking of movies:
yesterday i saw a trailer for rent and now im really excited and nervous about it. i want to see it, especially because it has most of the original cast in it, but what if its bad?
then, later, i watched camp on tv. i know certain people will hate me for this, but it made me cry. the part where the girl gets her mouth un-wired shut and then sings that beautiful song. i agree that parts of this movie are offensive, but not really the ones that maxy said were offensive so much. anyway, that doesnt keep me from enjoying the musical numbers.
also: im seriously considering switching to an lj.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:27 PM |

 
you very cute! recieve my heart please
mia has caught some yarn from my room and is dragging it around looking super-cute.
i went to sara sligars party today and it was fun, but my scrapbook page felt outclassed by everyone eles pretty ones, and then i sat at a table with abunch of juniors(seniors) and amelia, and they all talked about uni and what they were taking next year and it felt really weird. i dunno.
but i went to see the batman movie for my brothers birthday and i spent the whole time trying to analyze it philisophically. billy vaughn would have been proud. but i dont think that the people who made the movie thought very hard about justice or anything, because there wasnt anything coherent to analyze. it was kind of dissapointing. man, i totally want to major in philosophy.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:23 PM |

 
its a nervous tic motion of the head to the left
i love that song. but not when i have it stuck in my head for hours.
yesterday me and alison and annie went to see mr and mrs smith, which was quite good, but i started singing that the second we got out of the theater and couldnt stop for ages. but at least its a good song.
today i had to pick eli and his friends up at parkland and then drive them home, and i swear it was the most hellish experience ever. first i couldnt find the parking lot at parkland that i was supposed to get them at, and then mom gave me faulty directions to one of the kids houses. and they were being really loud and it hot and awful.
me and alison watched lotr rotk ee and it was excellent.
also: while driving i called into 107.1 to request that 'some of my friends sell records' song(which is, i have learned, called 'gangsters and thugs'), and not only did they play it, they played the clip of me requesting it! it was the highlight of my day. ok, maybe not the highligh, but pretty awesome. so if you happened to be listen around 3:30-ish, i think, you may have heard it.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:13 PM |

 
some of my friends sell records, some of my friends sell drugs
last night i had this really huge epic dream, and i swore i was going to remember it when i woke up, but all i have now is a vague recollection and some images. it involved angelina jolie and an alien baby and some important futuristic war that i was involved in. i wish i could remember the plot- there was a lot of plot and it was cool. i am mourning the loss of my dream.
also, i finally got an email from the hiring service people at the u of i to get paid for when i worked in the office. i entered in the user name and password they gave me, and they said it expired because i was hired more than 60 days ago. im mad at susan.
i really need to write thank yo cards, but im so lazy.my grandparents are coming today and my mom is making a chocolate cake that im very excited to eat.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:59 PM |

 
note: books are carefully folded forests
man, i just got back from zack mcgintys bar mitzvah. me and alison were babysitting. it was weird. first we had no one to babysit, so we just sat around in this room way off far away from the service. then we finally got some kids and got into playing this game where they put us in jail and we escaped and hid from them. and it was hard because then we didnt have a good time keeping an eye on them, so we tried to get caught all the time but some of them were double agents and would shove us back into our hiding places when we tried to come out. but then it was over so we had to sit around and hang out at the reception untill it was over so we could help clean up. and i felt akward because i was underdressed, and some people talked to us but mostly we felt akward the whole time. it was wierd. i wish i could actually see a bar or bat mitzvah. that would be cool.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:44 PM |

 
yes, wind is the moons imagination wandering
ah. i just got back from maxys birthday party. we went to meadowbrooke and ate food. me and hannah went on a really long quest beforehand to get him presents. then we went to the party and were late. we played sardines and saw tom and kimmy and anita there which was fun. then we went to mayas house.it was pretty cool. yup. now im back. but i have good plans for tommorrow, and some bad plans which include babysitting...
also, i got this new book, which is awesome. the end.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:49 AM |

 
she wants a pina colada in a pint glass
i wish i knew if i was going to college next year... it would make thinking about it so much easier.
today i ran all the errands i needed to, which was a relief. i still havent gotten paid( plus my mom is getting really mad at me for lack of job), but i returned my bad report cards and a huge stack of books to the library(where i saw aggie).
i went on a mission to get this book after a i read an excellent review of it in EW, but while i was on my way out to pages it got really dark and really windy, and i didnt want to get stuck in some gigantic storm, so i turned around and went home, and it promptly turned into just a normal rainy thing, which was dissapointing. but i put the book on hold. and now its thundering really loud.
i also went shopping at target with alison and kinzie. i got a new wallet, which was badly needed, as well as a shirt and a really cute skirt thats slightly too big for me. it was fun.
then maxy and hannah came over and watched six feet under with me and alison. hannah said she liked it better than before, which was good. i love that show.
im listening to a new cd and am being happy.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:17 AM |

 
ive reached up so many times to find my hands full of emptiness
my week with the house to myself is over... it was nice. i didnt really take as full of advantage of it as i could have, but it was still fun.
im having all of these dilemmas, and theyre very complicated, and i wish i could explain them to someone, but they all have these long backstories and i cant bring them up so im just confused and in positions i dont like. i hate this feeling.
but some things are good. i like summer. i like being able to stay out really late all the time.
i might be an au pair next year.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:19 AM |

 
and i dont know why its so hard to consider this
the fact that ive graduated keeps hitting me in flashes. sometimes i dont feel like anything has changed at all, and then all of the sudden i realize that im no longer a high school student. i watched freaks and geeks with batia yesterday and realized that it no longer applied to me anymore. it was very strange.
having the house to myself is going pretty good. i keep on forgeting some of my responsibilities, like feeding the animals, and im trying to avoid having to run the dishwasher, but other than that it's pretty good. i went shopping and felt very responsible. i ended up watching six feet under by myself, which was ok, because i couldnt recruit anyone to watch it with me. it was quite excellent anyway. i love that show. then i finally watched the end of in america with hannah and it made me cry. im in a crying mood. you know how i usually dont cry in front of other people? i mean, i cry watching movies by myself all the time, but hardly ever with other people. but i also cried at cinderella man with my parents. a lot. it made me think about mississippi, even though it took place in new jersey in the '30s. but still, it made me cry.
i also just bought the new girlyman cd, and its making me feel really happy. im listening to it for the second time through, it's excellent. soon im gonna have lunch, maybe. and i should think about cleaning my room, because it's a mess.
- posted by Caitlin @ 2:01 PM |

 
gaiety, song-and-dance, here we are and there we are?
dudes, we're graduates.
this feels weird.
really.
i cried when we switched our tassles. the speeches were good, especially mr raybs. our uni-luminators are awesome. my family took billions of pictures. we went to dinner. my aunt and cousin gave me a tea set:) then we went to parties. embarrasing things were revaeled at kinzies.
now im sitting at home with a lovely yearbook. maybe ill post more detailedly later, now i must sleep so that i can get up in the morning and say goodbye to my relatives.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:39 AM |

 
last time i saw you, we'd just split in two
damn. i was unable to sleep; thats why im up at this ridiculous hour. im still looking forward to graduation, but it still seems a long way off, even though its today. im brainstroming about how to decorate my cap, but i only have one idea so far. maybe ill just do that one. im looking forward to graduation parties and such. and also getting my lovely signed yearbook back today before we graduate so i can read it and cry. im so excited because all sorts of people i know will be there. and my aunt julie read my AIDS paper and said it was good. that made me proud of myself.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:52 AM |

 
we are marching in the light of god
i just posted my anthro project online so im all done with uni work FOREVER!! YAAAAAAAAY! and im starting to look forward to graduation. itll be pretty cool. everyone come.
also i cant come to graduation parties tonight. and i might go to beloit next year after all.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:24 PM |

 
desperado, why wont you come to your senses
yesterday was six flags. the school was mysteriously decorated (now how could that have happened!?!) six flags was fun, but REALLY hot and everything was so expensive so i was dehydrated a lot. i went on a rollercoaster(my first), and it was terrifying. never again. but other than that, it was fun. and we played the song game on the bus and that was awesome.
mississippi is not looking so good, which is incredibly sad for me. actually, my plans in general are not turning out as i had hoped. but i had a really nice long talk on the phone last night that cheered me up.
and then ive driven to and from uni about 50 times today, and i listned to the saddest song eve, and further decorated my wall. and i almost cried when we sang ziyahumba at graduation choir rehersal, when we start clapping. im certainly going to cry when we do it for real. and also probably tonight at the senoir supper. at least i scoped out places for my handprint today in the lounge. i have lots of potentials, i found some good ones.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:19 PM |