what does it mean to be real?
i just got back from joan and kens wedding. i cried. ive been quite weepy lately, i think ive cried every day this week. hmmm, now why on earth could that be?
im looking forward to next week, cause all this good stuff is gonna happen, even though we're graduating at the end of it and thats sad.
but first i have to finish our math poster because stupid hugh didnt. grr.
i also started rereading harry potter 5, even though im kind of in the middle of two other books at the moment.
- posted by Caitlin @ 7:34 PM |

 
no predicting what could happen in a lifetime
its over. i cried, as expected. actually, i cried several times. after orchestra, out of frustration with mr murphey, but also because i was sad. and then after school. it was weird, cause half of our class was celebrating, and half was crying. i just need to keep reminding myself that we have another week. a week of six flags and deutsch 4 fete and senior supper and handprints and parties and then finally graduation, and then after that i have a house which will be equally awesome. but still. i love uni. really. and ill never have another clas there ever agian. and ill never really have another 'school day', not counting the ones ill hopefully have at sherard. im bad at putting this stuff into words, but im sure some of you know what i mean.
anyway, i got lots of nice signatures today, but i still have several very omportant ones to get. we also got our cap and gowns. the caps dont feel as goofy as i thought they would, but the gowns are WEIRD! they have shoulder padding. we also have very specific graduation instructions. it says we need to 'maintain our diginty' on the way out, but i think ill be sobbing.
the gargoyle came out and my interview sounds idiotic.
things i can do now that im done with school: read the symposium; watch tv all night; do other things all night;etc.
all day today i was like 'this is my last uni english class ever'. ' this is my last 5th hour free ever'. 'this is my last seminar class; my last class period'. it was so sad. i didnt want to leave the building cause that ment it was the end of my last day ever. i dont want to clean out my locker cause after that i wont have a locker at uni any more. u love my locker. at least im putting it in good hands next year. batia, cna i sometimes store stuff in there next year, just for old times sake? ok, maybe im getting a little extreme here, but seriously, my mind cant wrap itself around the fact that im done with uni. i need comforting.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:21 PM |

 
let our hearts be bound as one
im considerably cheered up. im still sad about graduating, but im not as upset about other things. i think it was the people that did it. having nice talks with wonderful people always makes me happy, especially when theyre the right people in the right place. do you know what im talking about?
also: have you noticed that certain people have certain smells? some people dont have smells at all, but some people have very distinctive ones. and then you smell them and go 'oh, thats nice'(not in a creepy way). sometimes when i miss people i think i smell them, even though it defenitly isnt them. maybe i have synesthesia, connecting my memory to my sense of smell. isnt smell the sense most connected with your memory, anyway?
i must write an anthro paper.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:02 PM |

 
i must confess that my lonlieness is killing me now
damn. do you ever feel something, and even though you recognize the stupidness and futility of your emotions, you cant do anything about it? and then you just get angry with yourself? ive been in a bad mood lately, in ways that i really dont want to be. it sucks, after so much happiness. im not looking forward to this weekend, because i know i will feel even shittier then and man do i hate this feeling.
i have to go play in an orchestra concert that mr murphey is sabotaging for me, and then i have to do an anthro paper, and all i really want to do is have a good cry. or hang out with cool people. or do somthing better than what i will be doing all tonight. my cd even is not cheering me up.
- posted by Caitlin @ 6:03 PM |

 
anything you want, you got it
my room smells bad. i dont know why.
i went to ayeshas after school today to study and it wasnt the best idea ever.
me and mr rayb had a 'last independent study' party at hot wok. then we got yearbooks. its exciting because we're the seniors this year so we get half the yearbook dedicated to us. im happy with my prediction, but theres an insanely ugly pictue of me in it :( i cant wait to get it signed. me and alison were comparing signatures over the years. nick and michelle's pictures are adorable.
mississippi is getting complicated in more ways than before. im suffering from one of the seven deadly sins, not the one you're thinking of. sigh. things suck, and wont get remarkably better any time soon.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:46 PM |

 
only on the condition that you call me esteban
school is the most useless thing ever. i didnt understand senioritis before-- now i do. we didnt do anything in english or pe or world or orchestra(man, do i hate mr murphey). my free period was fun. then we didnt do anything in anthro or math or seminar. actually, in math we went on a fun recoinaissance mission, but it was pretty useless other than that. and i felt especially useless all day ebcause i forgot to get a permission slip, so i couldnt donate blood. and on the way to anthro me and ayesha and max had an unhappy experience with a bird.
now im looking forward to readin the symposium eventually and watching kinsey tonight. sigh.
- posted by Caitlin @ 5:09 PM |

 
hey rose your heart grows with every opening
today was nice untill the end. me and hannah wrote a letter to dear abby (if you see 'upset in illinois', or something to that effect, thats us), and i had a really nice talk with ayesha dearest about graduating and college, that was comforting. do you guys realize--4 days?? thats not enough. im still in denial about how few days that is.
anyway, i got a good grade on my seminar paper, which made me feel happy and fulfilled. and maayan was here today, and so was jj, so that was cool.but then i left, and now im lonely. at least once school is over i wont have these traumatic going home and suddenly being isolated things. i can be with people 24/7, especially because of all of our sleepovers that we're gonna have. right? im lonely. :( but im listenign to my CD which makes me happy. but i wish i had people. sigh.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:19 PM |

 
im singing! and youre my dad! and i love you!
remeber how i used to not know what i wanted to major in in college? no longer. philosophy. defenitly. i will be the happiest person in the world. even though billy vaughn told me that i wouldnt like philosophy classes at college. i dont believe him. i will love it and be HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.
the plan for this summer: have sleepovers and sing. and have a six feet under party on the 6th, because my family is gone then, and im definatly watching it, but not alone.
im waiting for six feet under and thinking about reading 'symposium'. this summer when i have lots of time. im in a good mood.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:35 PM |

 
the world will sing when i am king
yay, today was nice. i went to my horn lesson, which might have been my last one ever, which is sad. but i wore my new sunglasses, and felt snazzy. then i watched i <3 huckabees, which reminded me of how much i want to be a philosopher. seriously. dont be suprised when i end up with a degree in philosophy in 5 years.
then we went to the grease gala, which was cool.
dont you hate akward situations, where you spend the rest of the day dwelling over how akward it was? yeah.
anywya, then mom took me shopping for wedding/graduation clothes, and i got a really cute skirt and a shirt, and, most excitingly, a bra, which i am in lvoe with because all of my old ones were dying.
im really tired now on account of no sleep, but tonight is the season finale of 'greys anatomy', so ive got to get some caffeine in me. and maybe i should work. haha. work. i just want to watch family guy.
- posted by Caitlin @ 5:59 PM |

 
wives mothers daughters
im lying on my bed with my hair down, and DAMN, its long!
i spent almost all of today watching tv, and i was sad, like, 'oh no, im gonna spend a wonderful sunday just sitting around watching tv'. but then tonight i went over to hannahs and hung out with hannah and kinzie and max and maya, who it turns out is really cool, and we sang beautiful music and played the song game, and then i watched 'in america' with hannah, and it was good but now its incredibly late and i have to be up around 9:30 tomorrow.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:55 AM |

 
we can dance if we want to
im all done with my paper. ALL DONE!! its beautiful and perfect, even though its only 26 pages, and im happy and i hpe he doesnt hate it because that would make me feel bad.
DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE
i also sent lisa my graduation words. theyre boring but oh well.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:42 PM |

 
my love cant save you, only my new powers can!
yay, i went to star wars. it was not the best movie ever-- the story line was good, but the acting and writing were AWFUL. but it wasnt as bad as the first two. anyway, i had fun. the theater was packed, and i sat behind this really weird guy who would say things like 'obi wan kenobi' randomly under his breath during the movie. it was a goo class boning experience.
then me and alison and hannah and nick and max and kinzie went to steak and shake and we sang songs really loud and then had to go home, and i got home at about 4 and have gotten approxiamtly 2 hours of sleep. everyone was really tired today.
im drinking a pepsi in order to get up my caffine to finish (yes, FINISH) my seminar paper- its due tomorrow, and i will be so happy when i turn it in! i hope its good, otherwise ill feel bad that i put all this time into a bad paper.
i one my first award ever at a uni awards show, which made me happy. and i was happy that mr rayb was our teache rof the year, because unlike most teachers, he actually likes our class.
ok, paper time! wish me luck!
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:17 PM |

 
uncle richard meet james earl jones
man, the little page-count thing at the bottom of my screen is lying to me! it said i had 24 pages, and i was all excited, so i scrolled down to look, and it was actually shorter than before! i still have 23! how will i ever make this long enough??
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:43 PM |

 
when the daylights gone and your on your own
i just sent an email to this really cool poet, beau sia. id post a poem of his, but i have to work on my seminar paper before going to see star wars(!!), so maybe later. anyway, hes cool, and i hope he replys and doesnt think im weird for sending him a random email.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:36 PM |

 
and we will ride on the wheels of a dream
i thought about ragtime today and remebered how wonderfull it was, and now i really want a soundtrack to listen to(kinzie, if you burned it for me i would love you forever and ever)
my paper is almost 23 pages long, and im trying to get it to 30 by tonight so i can print it out and take it to school to edit. damn, stupid deadlines.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:49 PM |

 
poor old johnny ray
i just took a nice nap, and now im drinking a pepsi and ready to get started on my paper.
i went to the girls soccer game, and they lost, 5-0, which was sad. but it was fun to see my friends play. i saw ayesha a lot, because her position was situated over by where we were sitting, i think, but other than that, i had a really hard time following who was who. but i saw other people i know on the central team, for example, mckenna, and lisa from 6th grade(it was really weird to see her). anyway, i like seeing all of my friends play, its just sad that i had to see you guys lose. sorry.
and during 5th we went to the union and got ice cream, which was fun untill it made me feel sick. but i love being outside. and guess who gets the house to herself for a week after graduation!
speaking of graduation, you know that vitamin c song that everyone didnt want to be our graduation song? its really sad. it may be cliched, but i listen to it and it makes me sad because it reminds me of me.
in anthro we talked about graduation traditions, and i was completely unable to evaluate them in an anthropological way because i was so upset about graduating. for example, yukisaid he wasnt coming to the senior supper, and i was like "WHAT??? WHY NOT???? YOU MUST COME!!!" and then billy vaughn took that as evidence to support his anthropological point about whatever he was saying. it was along the lines of 'uni does all this nice stuff for you so that youll donate money later'. i dont care! i like traditions!
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:36 PM |

 
take this while you can, kiss me
i finished my english presentation, and i think its pretty good other than the fact that its too long and i say 'um' every other word. also, i found the version of my paper that i turned in, and it has all that stuff that i thought i had forgotten to include.
now i need to work on seminar. i hate all you people that are done with work (though i am NOT regreting taking seminar, thank you very much.) by next friday ill be all done. oh wait, thats the end of school, too. oh well. by this friday ill be done with seminar, and thats the big thing anyway.
did you know clarksdale has a webpage? unfortuantly, the classifieds page doesnt work.
i sent an email to bob coverdill so it appears i wont be going to MS this summer. i am strangely unambivilant about it. i should have suspected, given the fact that i am in denial about graduating and leaving everybody.
anyway, im listening to my CD for the billionth time, and am as we speak going to crack down on my paper (that made no gramatical sense at all, did it?)
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:14 PM |

 
when i first met you i said, get away you smell like fish heads
im writing my english presentation, which sucks because i really should be writing my seminar paper. but im going through my english paper to suck information out, and im realizing how bad it is. like, i forgot to include a bibliography. and i only ever sighted information from one critic. im going to get a horrible grade and then beloit will reject me.
today after school i went to my horn lesson and there were thses people sitting on the steps playing thumb pianos, and it was so pretty and nice and i smiled at them.
also, during fifth me and hannah and kinzie and nick and max went to the quad and it was fun.
right now my parents are talking about me in the other room, and its really annoying. theyre discussing how ill get healthcare in mississippi.
speaking of mississippi, i think ive decided not to go on the summer habitat trip. for many reasosn, some of which may be obvious and some of which arent. im going there next year, anyway, so its not like ill never see the delta again. and i dont really want to abandon everyone the day after graduation. and ill probably get the house to myself for several days if i dont. and there are other reasons. yeah. so i have to send an email to bob coverdill atempting to explain myself.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:06 PM |

 
folks roamed the earth like big rolling kegs; they had two sets of arms, they had two sets of legs
this song makes me really want to go read symposium.
im wishing that i had worked on my paper yesterday instead of watching a billion hours of 'americas next top model', because im just now remembering how hard it is to write this paper. its hard.
yesterday was my last uni show ever, and it went pretty well. then we went to the cast party, which was fun because we wrestled and played wink and leg wreslted, and i have a bunch of impressive bruises now. wrestling is the best thing ever. then we playe other games that were not so fun and a bit dissapointing. and we watched la mala educacioun (however you spell that), which was brillinat, only we accidentaly got the edited version, so im going to have to see it again.
and now im writing my paper. ugh. its not going to well. im just trying to finish it now, and then ill go back and expand and make it pretty later.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:53 PM |

 
the children of the earth
mine is on cordelias lj. no one ever seems to want to fill these out on blogs, but go for it! itll be fun!

ABOUT YOU
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/last listened to:
6. Do you read my journal:
7. If you do, what are the bits that stand out as particularily good or bad:
8. Interesting fact about yourself:
9. Are you in love at the moment, or have a crush:
10. Favourite spot/place to be:
11. Your favourite lyrics (poetry or song):
12. Best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A movie:
2. A book:
3. Artist/band, song and album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. If we have mutual LJ friends, tell me what you like about them:
4. Put this in your own journal so I can tell you what I like about you.
- posted by Caitlin @ 2:33 PM |

 
the only boy who you could ever reach me
firt big show is over, and it went well.
but i feel awful. we have 9 or so days left at school, and i really cant believe this. ive been at uni for so long, that it hasnt really hit me what graduating means, you know? like, i cant picture what its like to not go to uni... this may sound really stupid, but its true. i mean, ill miss my friends most of all, but ill also just miss our class. i really like our clas.s and ill just miss uni, you know? im really comfortable there, i know everything, i know what to do. its really comfortable and i love it. im afraid that ill graduate and never have anything like this ever again. and despite some beef, im really afraid that this right now is about as good as itll get. im really scared about graduating. im afraid that going to mississippi wont work out. im afraid i made the wrong college choice. basically, im afraid that my life will suck from now on. every other year before this, ive been upset about things, and complained about our class, but that was before i had to leave it. i wish that i was a subbie agian; it didnt even occur to me then to think about leaving. but back then i also didnt have all these great relationships with people that i have now. why couldnt i have had all this back then? why did i have to go through 4 years of akwardness to reach here, where i finally feel perfect? and there are all these lasts. we had our last fitness class. tomorrow is my last uni theater show (and my last 5k, i guess). soon it will be my last orchestra(though i wont be too sad about that), my last class, my last time being a student. i dont like endings; i dont like change. this is not good for me. i need comforting, but unfortunatly im all alone and its not good for me. i hate being lonely. the only good thing about college is that ill be surrounded by people all the time, but they wont be the RIGHT people. theyll be a bunch of strangers who dont know me at all. this sucks.

sorry if that made no sense to you. everyone else seems to be so excited.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:34 PM |

 
trying to shove ourselves back together
i sent this email to bob coverdill about habitat this summer, but i have the sneaking suspicion that it did not reach him. what will i do? then again, if i dont go, ill probably get the house to myself for several days after graduation. but also: mississippi! with coll people! i feel worried and unplanned. i need to get better organized. im gonna forget something and then never graduate or go to college because im forgetful and lazy. btw, susan emailed me about getting my money. she said i needed to fill out this form on line ( and made it sound like it was all my fault. its not). so i need to do that so i can get the 50 or so bucks i have coming to me.
tomorrow is big show, and the day after, an you guys should all come. its really funny, and ill be there, even on stage at some points, an its good.then cast party! woohoo! wrestling!
im listenig to 'hey rose' again. did i say yesterday about how much in love with this song i am? it has the most beautiful harmony. also: 'come on eileen', its been playing through my head all day, in a good way. i dont really want to do anything right now other than listen to music.
i just read on my calender that yesterday was the aniversary of bob marleys death. thats sad.
i went on a big show errand today to get duct tape, and i got stuck in the hell of campus traffic. it took me forever to get to walgreens and back.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:24 PM |

 
come on eileen
i just discovered craigslist (courtesy of girlyman), and i discovered this on the best of page, thought i would share:

That was akward, but commendable

An "A" for effort goes to the gentleman in the blue pin-stripe, who tried to cover-up his gasket-blowing fart, that he clearly lost control of and knew he had nano-seconds to counter, by coughing real loud as he did so in a valiant, albeit futile, attempt at covering up the sound of his gaseous elevator-foul. Although the smell wasn't horrible (obviously a pre-lunch offering), a dry, semi-stagnant mixture of freshly cut grass and a small rotting vegetable, the sound was magnanimous, and the overall effect it had on the three other people in the elevator with him was to unite us in a common bond of 'strangers-against-guy-who-farted-in-a-shared-enclosed-space." For that unifying bond alone, I should thank you, because its not every day that you and two complete unknowns can telepathically communicate your agreed-upon ill-will towards another human being.

You almost, sir, almost pulled it off, but you miscalucated and coughed too soon, and so when the baratone ass-gas blurted out its opening piece, it caught the waning effort of your cough, whose aural flight of fancy was on its way into oblivion, and instead of shrouding one sound with another, it was more like organic dueling banjos or perhaps a bass guitar accompanying the opening riff of an acoustic. To have pulled it off you would have had to time it perfectly, matching pitch and tone as closely as possible, instead, it sounded only as if your ass took your mouth's cough as a challenge.

Nonetheless, bravo, sir, I applaude your split-second decision making. You've got middle management written all over you.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:26 PM |

 
and, if you put us in a blender, youd probably end up with a girly man
yay! im listening to my new cd :) and im very happy. happy happy happy. my new favorite band is girlyman. hey rose is the most beautiful song ive ever heard.
in math today we listened to my CD and sat around doing nothing and singing, which was fun, but i was really afraid suzuki was seceretly furious and we wont find out untill we get our report cards and weve all flunked math.
i made several refernces today, and most of them were got, that made me happy.
can i stress how much in a good mood i am? even with housing difficulties next year. i confirmed with max that were defintely going to mississippi next year, no matter what, so thats reassuring. other than that i can just be happy!
who's looking forward to this weekend? me!
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:09 PM |

 
ill teach you anything. just dont eat me.
ive gotten to the point where ive started to look forward to being at school more than at home. at school im with my friends, at home im useless and bored. its a bad situation. untill the weekend! i cant believe its only tuesday...i have so long to wait.
also, were graduating remarkably soon, and i dont know what my summer or next year is going to look like at all.
today in world we were watching a cold war movie, and they showed a clip from this russian news program, which happened to be the russian new program that the soundtrack to 'heart of the world' came from. i was uber excited about it, but no one else in the room had seen that movie i dont think, becuase i didnt see any big smiles of recognition on their faces. also, i had a talk with bro about movies (very short), and that was fun.
do you guys know that 'get your war on'comic in 'rolling stone'? anyway, you should checl out the one in the most recent issue. ive decided that i really like the guy that does it- he does good things with his space.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:45 PM |

 
ok now fellas
at what point in silence of the lambs does the bad guy talk about lotion and baskets? ive been hearing this really cool song on the raido, and it has a line that goes 'it puts the lotion on its skin, or else it gets the hose again', and i keep on hearing that this is a silence of the lambs refernce, but ive seen that movie (and read the book), and i have no idea what that refers to.
also: i almost had to explain to my dad what MILFs were, but then john stewart did it for me. phew.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:00 PM |

 
why cant i find a woman like that?
today i was forced to tell people things, and accidentally told mr sutton something i shouldnt have, and lied, and over all said things i regret. but eh, that often happens to me.
i also have all this stuff i need to do to, you know, ensure my summer, and for some reason i just cant bring myself to do it. maybe its because im in denial about us graduating and me having to make summer plans, but at the rate im going, im not going to have naything to do this summer. well, not anything planned. sigh.
big show rehrsal was fun. 5th hour was fun. i got really hyper furing 7th by eating lots of cake and due to lack of sleep. ill catch up on more sleep tonight. i want it to be next weekend.
i hope im not messing up things that i really like.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:11 PM |

 
can you stop with the domination? im just trying to rest...
heehee.
i went to big show and now im back, and some of them are pretty funny.kinzie hit me.
my, oh, two or three hours of sleep are starting to catch up with me. i dont feel tired really, i just feel a little out of sync.
i was watching vh1 today, and they say that next week theyre going to have another marathon of americas next top model, so i will definitely be watching. in fact, ill probably watch it all day, like i did last time, when that weekend i really need to be working on my seminar paper and english presentation. oh, so much work.
i want to make my rahads awesome mix tape #6, ive been inspired by prom.
i just realized that i think im still wearing my makeup. oops.
- posted by Caitlin @ 6:39 PM |

 
we're goin to the chapel and we're gonna get maa-aa-aarried
prom. yay. lets recap the evening:
we all went to kinzies house, and she did my hair and makeup, and then we took pictures, and then we went to milos. it was yummy. we showed up at prom fashionably late, and it was cool. they played a mix of good(jessies girl) and bad(other sutff) music, but it was really enjoyable. and they played thriller, and i discovered that i do not remember the dance at all, and also that it is impossible to do in a dress with a big train. and the last dance was 'new york new york' which reminded me of the yankees.
everyones dresses were beautiful, and it was so exciting. i love seeing everyone all dressed up and beautiful. i cant wait to see the pictures.
then we went back home to change, and me and hannah went bowling. we played with molly and dekota and mandy, and i lost miserably. hannah had twice as many points as i did. it was not a good game. but it was fun. then we went back to my house and there was a lack of wrestling, and we went to lauris which was really funny. then back to my house to sleep. and when we all woke up at 8-ish, it was past breakfast, and everyone left. the end. now i have to go to my horn lesson, which i will suck at, and then big show rehersal. and tomorrow will be miserable because i have gottne almost no sleep all weekend. but im looking forward to my new favorite show tonight.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:22 PM |

 
i was cured all right...
im better! yay! well, almost better. im still staying hydrated, and eating lots of oranges for the vitamin c, but im definatly going to be better by saturday! possibly even tomorrow! woohoo! :) this cold has gone on long enough.

speaking of tomorrow, im happy because its a half day, which means that:
a)i don't have to sit through 8 hours of useless class.
b) i can do fun things for the rest of the day, INCLUDING condo 2 reunion!

really the only good thing left in my day anymore is fifth hour. today i brought in CDs, which was nice, because we didnt have to listen to the same aprox. 5 CDs over and over. maybe ill bring in more tomorrow. maybe ill bring in the habitat CD. i want to make eric loui listen to the words in 'changes' and 'hope', because he doesnt believe that rap songs can have good lyrics.
- posted by Caitlin @ 6:49 PM |

 
succoutash my balzac, you dipshiitake
im sick. again. i desperatly need to get better again by this saturday(prom), though preferably by friday, because that is the gaol i set for myself. please get better, me! i got home and drank two glasses of orange juice, because aparently that will make me get better. also, ive been sleeping a lot. this is what i did yeasterday after school: read my book; fall asleep; wake up to eat dinner; fall asleep; wake up to wash my face; fall asleep. then in the morning mom told me i should stay home, so i slept some more, but came into school in time for both of my free periods, because staying home sick is lonely and i dont like it.
i finished my book at school today, and it was very sad. i didnt cry because i was at school, and i dont cry as easily in front of other people, but i wish i had cried, because i walked around for the next half hour or so feeling incredibly sad about my book, and i think it would have been more cathartic to cry. everyone should read it. for those of you that did not get the chance to study the cover of the book, its called: "extremely loud and incredibly close", and its by jonathan safran foer, and id offer to loan it to you, but its my dads and i dont know if he would let me. but i bet you can get it from the library! or buy it(its worth it)!

does your brain ever do that thing where, if you're just falling asleep or just waking up, and you were reading a book( if you're falling asleep) or dreaming (if you're waking up), and your book/dream had some sort of narrative, and your brain tries to continue the story while its in that between-sleep-and-awake dazed state? and then if you were reading a book, when you wake up, you think things happened in your book that really didnt happen? or if you were dreaming, you just wake up telling yourself a story? its kind of cool.
- posted by Caitlin @ 6:04 PM |

 
cause its a thriller, thriller night
i went to be inducted into thesbians, which was pretty cool. and i went to the thriller video shoot for the senior video. im a bad dancer. i knew that before, but its been confirmed. im always there in the back row, grining like mad and messing up all the steps. but oh well.
now i have almost nine pages but have become distracted by 'extremely loud and incredibly close', the book that my dad just finished and gave to me. its so wonderful. i read the first chapter, and it made me cry, and i know that if i dont force myself to stop, ill just stay up all night reading it. its so good and sad!
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:50 PM |

 
some day ill fly away
five pages! i have five pages!

by which i mean, i have two sentences on the fifth page.
but still- half way done! maybe i should set a goal for myself- seven pages by 3:00? then i could enjoy the wedding shower a little bit...

at least i know i can defenitly write ten pages- ive done it before! thats kind of reassuring.
back to work.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:17 PM |