hes going for speed
i just finished cleaning my room. its beautiful. i listened to avenue q and weezer, and then i thought i vacuumed up a mouse and i screamed really loudly. but i turned out not to be a mouse and i was embarrassed because alison and my dad came running. i also went outside and it felt like summer. crazy!
plus, i threw away all mail from colleges that im not applying to. my room is seriously VERY clean, at least by my standards. now i feel obligated to work, but i really want to read a book. ive finished 3 books so far this break, and im feeling very accomplished. yes, i had been reading one for months and the other 2 were novellas, but still. this is my list of books to read next:
1. paradiso
2. in cold blood
3. midnight in the garden of good and evil
4. hotel new hampshire
but perhaps ill read an AIDS book so i can feel like im doing some work
- posted by Caitlin @ 5:57 PM |

 
hohoho, sind wir froh
UChicago-check
SLC-check
YAY! just three more to go and theyre due Jan. 15 or later!
minnesota was fun and we played this REALLY fun game called catchphrase.
when we got back i had a message on the answering machine for mr rayb and i called him back and he said that he had a swarthmore letter envelope but he didnt know whose it was and he wanted to know if it was mine. i told him that indeed i was applying to swarthmore, but then it turned out not to be mine.
then i had a very weird argument/ disscussion with my mom about rosie o'donnell and butch lesbians. it was quite strange.
anyway, now that im done with applications(almost), i cant really think of anything to do. oh wait, i remember: 15 page paper, abortion homework, blah blah. this sucks.

- posted by Caitlin @ 1:49 PM |

 
turns out lonely people are all the same
swarthmore-check
just 5 more!
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:46 PM |

 
its still an emotionally charged towel
this is so disheartening. i have to spend the day after christmas writing my swarthmore essay. and i accidentally deleted some of it:-(( i dont even get to go out and play in the snow. though i did do some snow driving and it was quite fun. i figure i have a 7 hour dive tommorrow to read, listen to music, etc.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:45 PM |

 
i want to do what common people do
wesleyan -check
beloit-check
just 6 more to go!
im so proud of myself for finishing the commn app.
also: i finished my christmas shopping and saw kelly digges, but i dont think he knew who i was, even though i have his screen name and imed him once. i also saw steal this book and i read part of it and wanted to steal it.
this morning i woke up around noon and the first thing i saw was a lot of light. it was so bright out, and the sun was reflecting of the rain drops on my window and making a big bright spot on my bed it was so beautiful, and i was waiting for some angel to appear or for me to have an epiphany, but alas.
- posted by Caitlin @ 5:17 PM |

 
brad, or brada?
i wne tover to ayeshas house to play cranium, and i found her house very sucesfully, and played cranium, which was lots of fun. then i drove back home even more succesfully, and on the radio they played this song i really liked, but they cut it off 30 seconds into it for loveline. it was terrible.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:15 AM |

 

my hair is being remarkably well behaved and beautiful.
im almost done with the common app! all i have to do is add a couple of sentences tp my essay and then write a short answer about my most valuble experience in the past 4 years, but i dont know what to do. but anyway, its a short answer. after im done with that, i can send off wesleyan and beloit, becuase ive done the extra stuff for them already. YAY. this is so sad, all i can think about is college apps. someone please rescue me.
also, ive forgotten when christmas is. friday, or saturday? anyway, i have to go shopping soon.

- posted by Caitlin @ 5:19 PM |

 
she wore blue velvet
last night i finally watched blue velvet and i have no idea what happened. something strange. but it was pretty good.
then i woke up this morning and im wiating desperatly for the mail to come.
i really need to do all my christmas shopping and i realized that i dont have all that much time. man, winter break seems so much shorter than usual.
yesterday i wanted to play the sims. so i started playing it but then i accidentally quit, so i tried to start it back up and it told me it wasnt installed, so i spent a half an hour installing it, and when i finally started it up, it just randomly quit for no reason. it was very frusterating.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:28 AM |

 
fighting the battle of who could care less
today is my parents gigantic holidayparty, and i forgot how much i disliked setting up for it. because my arents spend all day preparing and always try to rope me into helping them, and its not fun.
but i am happy that its winter break! YAY! im hoping on going out and buyig resents for everyone tommorrow or monday, sometime soon, and then i dont have to stress out about it. instead i can stress out about all the other stuff i have to do.
i read a bunch of my book this morning, and im preparing to start reading(i mean, skimming) one of my AIDS books. i also started cleaning my room. i feel so proud of myself.
- posted by Caitlin @ 2:16 PM |

 
just a liar with wings
we finished citizen ruth today in philosophy. it was excellent.
i also had a hellish experience trying to drop my computer off at the computer repair place. i got lost a billion times, and while i was driving i realized i had gotten a parking ticket because it was just sitting on my windsheild. so, after about a half hour, i found it, and they told me i should come back tomorrow.and when i finally got back to uni i had completely missed putting up candygrams.
i watched degrassi today because i heard it was good. does anyone else remember this one tv show which was like a game show with kids? it was some haunted manision thing, but tropical, and there were teams that wore matching tshirts, and they advanced down steps and then they got to do obsticals that involved a "river", and then the people that were left got to do this race throught the big manison thing and there was a room with skeletons? that was the best show ever. we were just talking about it at the cast aprty. what was that show? also, there was this movie with a toster and a blanket and some other appliances, and their owners moved, and they got taken to the dump and had to find their way back. did anyone watch that movie?
i have a little blood blister on my toe thats starting to look like a leison. speaking of leisons, i havce a lot of work to do on my paper. grrr. and i realized that theres eight days till christmas, which on the good side means that its not very long till christmas, but on the bad side it means i have about a week to write my paper.
right now in degrassi theyre buying condoms. canada is so much more progressive than us. sigh.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:43 PM |

 
has the eagle landed?...
my computer is still mysteriously ill, and now this one is starting to malfunction. it made me do all this complicated stuff to get to blogger because the blogger page wasnt working. grrr. if i have to write my seminar paper on this computer, im goign to be angry. however, this is the computer i wrote my cutting edge on, so i just reread it. this is my favorite sentence:."People enjoy life on this planet so much, they want to see if there is life elsewhere." it was sort of sad, too, because i obviosly didnt understand what i was talking about. it was a little over 13 pages longs, though. im proud of that.
last night my mom never seemed to catch on that i was only in the tv room because i was forced to be, and that i was trying to work. so she was watching tv for a loooong time, because she was crocheting, and she kept on talking to me, and im also really distractable, so i didnt get to much done. she even watched the "talk sex" show, with that grandma, and i was really embarassed and had to leave the rooom on several occasions. so i didnt get o finish my canterbury tale reading, but mr rayb didnt either, so he loaned me 'the glass menagerie" movie and then i read the advocate. i also didnt work on my college essay like i said i would, but lisa said if i have it for her tommorrow, shell read it. so thats my goal. also: i need to re-do my quotes and write a will, because theyre actaually due tommorrow.
luckliy school is starting to wind down cause were already watching a movie in 2 of my classes, and theyre both good movies, despite the fact that ms linder told us we would hate the catch 22 movie. its not all that bad, and it has a great cast.
- posted by Caitlin @ 4:41 PM |

 
do you realize that you have the most beautiful eyes
today has been horrible. well, school was ok, but then i had to go and sit in my dads office waaaay longer than i had expected, and i somehow managed to get in a fight in my parents, and then my computer broke. like, really, really broke. its not just being stupid anymore: it wont start up, and i may have to erase my entire hard drive to get it going again. its terrible-i have things that i really want on there, and im so traumitized. im typing on our imac in the tv room and remining myself of carrie in that episode where her computer crashes and she looses everything- thats me right now. plus i have to write this stupid philosophy paper and read the man o' laws tale and hopefully write a college essay, and its never gonna happen. someone please cheer me up.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:01 PM |

 
a movie? they have food and drinks there, dont they?
im watching ellens sitcom, and its the first really funny one ive ever seen. i love ellen, but usually the sitcom sucks.before that i watched ellens talk show. im in ellen overload. of course, im doing this instead of my college essay, which i finally have a topic for!
were also about to revive the crucible, and i think im the only person still excited about it. im excited about theater fest, but mostly im excited about reviving the show.
ok, back to writing my essay. im definatly going to have it tommorow. definatly. definatly.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:11 PM |

 
operator, can you help me
my day turned out to be more like this:
1. horn lesson
2. scarface
3. christmas tree
4. no homework or essays
i cant believe i still havent written any essays. im terrible. im going to have my common app essay done by wednsday, i promise. thats my deadline. i came up with a really good essay to write, but its not for the common app, its for the bard essay, so im not as excited and i havent written it yet.
this morning i got up early to read the sunday nytimes, because im very obsessive about it, but for some reason, there was no magazine, and i was really sad because thats one of my favorite sections.
i found my cousins xanga today, and was just a little bit disturbed by it.
hmmm. ive not been very productive. this just means ill have a miserable last week of school. oh well.
my mom came home from chicago and decided to clean out our "music cabnit", where we keep sheet music, etc. so she made me sort through all this horn stuff, and i found my 6th grade band folder and looked through it and got so nostlagic for band, even though i hated middle school. band was great.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:13 PM |

 
yin and yang were really one person
mom and dad went to chicago this weekend because its my moms birthday, and i wasted the ENTIRE day( like, 6 or 7 hours) watching a marathon of "americas next top model". i feel like an idiot. but i also babysat and then we had a little mini-party with ayesha and annie and tom, which was fun. now im watching this insane wong kar wai movie that i dont understand at all. especiall not when im typing at the same time. though i am doing a remarkable job of typing by touch, if i do say so myself.
all and all, ive really done nothing today, this is what im doing tommorrow:
1. horn lesson
2. pulp fiction
3. homework + essays.
this will not be a fun day.
ooh, when me and alison went to rentertainment on friday, mr bs son was there, and it was really cool. they look exactly alike. in world. we watched the music video for the blackouts, which mr bs son made. apparently rheyre freinds. mr b says theyve been trying to get it on mtv.
ooh, tony leung just appeared in my movie. time to pay attention.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:42 AM |

 
and he always had some mighty fine wine
who else saw isabella rosellinni witness the daily show audience? she totally did.
i almost missed my wesleyan interview today because i only remembered it in the middle of orchestra, but i think it went well. lets see, beloit visit was good, too. i really liked it a lot.
in world the other day we watched "rebel without a cause", and i LOVE that movie, but everyone hated it but me and gabby. even mr b didnt like it. they even laughed at james dean, and i was so sad.
but i have tons of reading to do. i dont have any math homework, but im about 7 chapters behind for catch 22, and i have a whole story in the canterbury tales to read. luckily, since i missed monday and fri. is short, this will be a very short week, yay! i need to remember to get my mom a birthday present, its on the 11th
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:12 PM |

 
i want to sleep with common people, like you
man, our cast party was good. i was so sad yesterday during the performance because i thought we wouldnt have a cast party, and those are always what i look forward to, but then we magically did, and it was great. and cordelia drove me around with her brand new liscence, and i got an eclair at strawberry fields which was INCREDIBELY good. plus, this cast party was way longer than usual because it started at 6, at least for me.
this morning i had to get up way early to go to my horn lesson, which sort of suckd, but then i learned how to play the end of the first movement of my concerto and its really cool and fun and i feel so musical.
soon, im driving up to wisconsin to visit beloit, and i hope its really nice. but if i went to swarthmore me and batia could go to the same college... hmmm.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:09 PM |

 
michelle, mah belle
i cant believe its only wednsday.. but i woke up this mornign and it was snowy and sunny which made me happy. but then came school...(duh duh duh)(that was supposed to be ominous music).
im upset about studprod because its really bad. i mean, the plays arent all bad, in fact most of them are pretty good, but everything else just sucks and its making me really upset because i was looking forward to studprod so much.
anyway, after all that work last night(i finsished my habitat app!), i basically had nothing tonight. well, i had cath-22 reading, but i read a little and i figured i could finish later. so i watched the last hour and a half of "before night falls" with my mom. yes, im very impatient, i couldnt wait. but i had forgotten how sad it was. all i remembered was the funny, happy stiff, but as i was watching it i remembered that that stuff was all in the begining of the movie. so im feeling sad [are you sad?... do you get depressed?...]
i also played with make-up back stage, and a beautimous wig, and i rediscovered how much i love, love, love allen ginsberg.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:26 AM |