freedom's just another word for nothing left to loose
im so tired. whoever said senior year was easy obviously didnt remember the whole first semester. this sucks. i had so much i wanted to get done tonight, and instead im going to be going to bed early(for me) because im just SO TIRED. but i have all this stuff i need to do this week, and im not looking good.
instead, i spent my awake hours this evening slacking off. i dicovered a gay hiphop group called deep dickollective, who have an album called BourgieBohoPostPomoAfroHomo, which i think is really cool.
anyway, im gonna go to sleep now before i pass out, hopefully i will be really awake tommorrow because of this.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:05 PM |

 
pretty. smar-ttt.
yesterday i went to go see dead by dawn movie at the art, and i was so happy. maayan was there! and eli! man, i miss them. i havent seen maayan since this summer. :-(. bt she was really good. yay, maayans back!( but not for long. soon iim going out to visit slc)
anyway, i ended up sleeping thru a lot of cabnit of dr caligari because it was laaate, but it was good, what i saw.
so after the movie was over, we went out to the car, and it wouldnt start. i lefft the lights on accidentally, and all the batteries ran out. i fee; so stupid. annie had to give us a ride home, and dad came out with me and jumped it this moring. but he wasnt mad at all. thats good.
today is work day. im going to fill out the common app and then read atkm. wish me luck.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:27 PM |

 
deedeely dee dee dee, two ladies
today i was listening to bob marley(as always), and this one song came on, and eli said "that song's in 50 first dates." and i said " oh yea, i remember. this is the song they put in because they thought people didn't know the diffrence between jamaica and hawaii." eli said "well, theyre both tropical." and i said "see, you don't know the diffrence." and he said "yes i do. jamaica has weed and hawaii has pinapples." gasp! where does my brother learn this stuff?
yesterday i tried to get my parents to give me their cool old 70s clothes, but it turns out they didnt keep it. didn't they know that their children would want their old t-shirts someday? i guess not.
yesterday i cut out pictures from rolling stone and put them on my wall, and now i have a rock star wall. ok, its just 4 pictures, but theyre all cool. i feel snazzy.
i read a review of this movie called 'the graffiti artist', and one of the lead actors goes to sarah lawrence. so i told maayan, and she asked me his name, and i told her, and it turns out she has a CLASS with him! WOW. im so impressed. she said she doesnt know him too well, but she hears hes a little full of himself. i still think she should get to know him.
i have a ton of work to do tonight, and ive done none of it. i feel like a big slacker. im going to at least try to do my merit essay tonight, but i havent even thought about what to write about. ugh. ive been trying to read crito, but i dont really understand it, so now im listening to janis, which is great, but its not helping me do all the stuff i need to be doing.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:20 PM |

 
i prefer the term 'fuck puppet'
i just got back from seeing mikhail baryshnikov at krannert-aaaah. he was amazing. he can VIBRATE. im in awe. we tried to go back stage and see him, but they said "no. hes not signing autographs. hes going out to dinner."sigh. but he was awesome.
i havent done any homework yet- instead i read my book and rolling stone all day. im such a slacker. and tommorrow ive got to do my merit application and start writing essays and my resume, and its gonna be awful. ugh. i just want to get stupid applying over with.
today at the meet i sliped on a wet floor puddle and fell, and then alison and i started quoting ellen and no one had any idea what we were talking about. haha
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:13 PM |

 
how many oriental wives have you got?
i just finished writing my very bad english paper. it sucks. i will not get into any colleges and i will lead a miserable existence at mcdonalds.
today i made brilliant comments(if i do say so myself) in philosophy and laughed very loudly(but not as loudly as michelle) in math. i also made 5.50 working in the office. yay! i have a job, and it turns out susan is a really nice person.
also, ridenour put up the cast list. she made some good decisions, and some...bad ones. im really pissed off at her. nevertheless, i volunteered to do stage crew, just cause i like all the cast( on a side note, i can say nevertheless in middle english: natheless. isnt that awesome. and eye is ye. thats pronounced ee-uh. and knight(knyght) is pronounced kuh-nicht. just some coolness to share).
ive been listening to the ave q soundtrack, and i love it. it reminds me of maayan, who i havent talked to in way too long, and of chicago. i miss all you guys! on another side note, i think uchicago is spiting me. then send alison ALL this stuff, but they havent sent me a single thing since this summer. i want an application!
ok, i need to take a shower and then go to sleep. tommorrow: ice cream, movies, all around fun

- posted by Caitlin @ 1:28 AM |

 
Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham freinds
beat that.
im writing my history paper, and im only ~1/3 done. ugh. tommorrow night, i dont think i have any papers, so i can finally relax.
my eyelashes on my lower right lid have been irritating me all day, so ive been messing with them, which just irritates them more, and its all a vicious feedback cycle. anyway, now i have a bald spot in one section of my eyelashes. im deformed. i wonder how long it takes for eyelashes to grow back.
i started read the canturbury tales today, and im actually understanding whats going on. yay! its very slow going, but i know whats happening. i feel so smart.
im also feeling happy because of our cancled XC meet. i really didnt want to run it, i hate that meet. on the other hand, i didnt take advantage at all of the extra time i got from practice being cancled. i started my paper around 8:30, which is at least much earlier than when i started last nights paper.
i suck.
man, all my posts have been so short lately, i guess im just boring and have nothing to say. ill try to remember everything interesting thing that happens to me for next time.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:33 PM |

 
that little fire, under your ass
i have a 4-5 page paper to write tonight, and i havent started. i dont know what my topic's gonna be. im screwed.
today, running back from orchard downs, i saw a condom on the ground, and it was really gross.
also, in world since 45, we watched loony toons propoganda fron WWII, and it was really cool. i liked the "gremlins from the kremlin" song.
i had some insights to share when i started writing this, but ive forgotten them all, which is probably a sign that i should start working... wish me luck
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:51 PM |

 
i wonder what hong kong looks like upside down
im already ready for school to be over. tommorrow i have 3 free periods, which will be fun, but still. its tireing. tommorrow night i get to babysit eli so im gonna rent a bunch of movies from rentertainment during one of my free periods. yay.
i read my book a lot tonight and its really maddening. its just making hate politics, because in the 80s people were more concerned about their political careers than saving people.in san francisco there were 2 rival gay groups, the harvey milk club and the tolkas club, and they used AIDS as a platform to argue about instead of working together. people are so stupid.
i also talked a lot about college today, with lisa and then with my mom, and its starting to freak me out. im afraid i wont get in, and i havent started anything yet.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:26 PM |

 
i can name all 50 states in a quarter of a second. AH!
ive been in weird moods all day. grumpy then weirdly talketive and stuff like that. maybe its because of sleep deprivation.
i saw hero with ayesha today and it was wonderful, especially tony leung who is wonderful. then we had a photo shoot and took senior pictures. i look really bad in most of mine, but ayesha has some good ones. i just dont want mine to be really cliched but they all are. sigh. but i have more ideas.
i also started looking for senior quotes, and mine are all from movies, which makes me feel like a big dork. but i think i have too mnay and im not even done. i wanted to quote ellen, but most of her lines need her to say them, otherwise theyre not funny. she doesnt translate well to print.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:55 PM |