every little thing gonna be alright
school started. uuuuh. im loving seminar and philosophy. im really excited about all the reaserch and the paper, which makes me a big dork, i know. other than that, things are boring. i dont feel any "yay, im back to school"-ness. its like last year never ended. and im dreading applying to college. i feel behind, and its not even september.
i talked to my aunt about wesleyan, cause she went there, and she said lots of good things about it and said that if i went there it would make her very proud, which made me happy but also scared.
ive been listening to bob marley on constant rotation, because he makes me really happy. i want to venture out and get more cds before i get tired of legend, because that would be a real tragedy.
anyway, im feeling sleep-deprived already, and i want it to be summer again! but alas, its not.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:27 PM |

 
would you be loved
today on the radio i heard a song, and the lyrics went like "something something something with a white girl named caitlin". ive become a stereotype. i bet they spelled it katelyn though.
xc today was harder than it should have been, im really exhausted. the potato party was fun, i ate way to much, but suprisingly few potatos.
i guess today is the last official day of summer because tommorrow will just be the weekend. ive made no progress on invisible man, tommorrow's gonna be major reading day.
i also went to visit drew today and his roommate has a giganitc picture of james dean on the wall, which made me happy.
anyway, im about to fall asleep. i just watched a wong kar-wai movie, and it was brilliant, but i was hardley awake by the end. so i need to sleep.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:13 AM |

 
bob dole likes your style. bob dole. bob dole.
im pissed off. i finally got on the phone with someone from strawberry fields and he said they couldn't hire me because you need to be 18 to work in food service jobs. why didnt you tell me this before?? im mad. plus, mia threw up on my bed this morning. it sucks.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:50 AM |

 
i only get carsick on boats
finally, ive learned how to say 'fucker' in both spanish and portugese: poo-ta. thats how its pronounced anyway. see, movies can teach you things.
i watched city of god today. brilliant.
ma'ayan came by with eli to say goodbye, and we looked at the butts on our kitchen wall. but im sad that ma'ayan will be gona for ages. i wont see her again till she comes back to visit in september, which is very far away.
tommorrow hopefully im going to interview for a job, and then read invisible man, which i desperatly need to finish.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:43 AM |

 
im quietly judging you
im reading the most amazing book. its called "and the band played on", about the beggining of the aids epidemic and how people ignored it. i was looking at my seminar book, which, by the way, is wonderful, and it has an entire chapter on aids. and it had an excerpt from this book which was amazing, so i decided to read it. and mom had it. the guy that wrote it got tested for aids but wouldnt let his doctor tell him the results untill he was done with the book so people wouldnt think he was biased. so he found out he had aids the day he finished it, and now hes dead. plus, the copy mom owns is used, and she opened it up and said "holy shit" because there was a card from the author. he had sent it to the origional owner of the book. i started reading it, and its both sad and frightening at the same time. its introducing you to all these characters, and lots of them have aids but dont know it, and its really sad. and its bringing out the hypochondriac in me. but oh well, im really enjoying it. but im not going to let it distract me from invisible man. actually, i guess it already has.
i got up early this morning and went to weights. i saw anita and kimmy there, which was nice, i havent seen them in a while. me and hannah got applications but i havent turned mine in yet.
right now im trying to stay up untill 2 because this movie i want to see comes on then. im recording it, but i really want to watch it now. i saw the end on tv last week, and it was so good, but ive been preventing myself from checking it out from rentertainment because its free on tv. i had a coke but im still getting a little tired. wish me luck.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:17 AM |

 
take me under undertaker
running is getting better, especially because today we had a long run, which was nice. tommorrow i think im gonna go to weights and then me and hannah snyder are going to apply for jobs. hopefully. well see if it really happens.
i bought my books today, like every other uni student. i have a zillion. im so excited about english class! were reading the best books. ive already read 'the things they carried', which is great. and im excited about reading 'rosencrantz and gildenstern are dead' because the movie stars two of my favourite actors, tim roth and gary oldman, and maybe well watch it in class! plus, i finished portrait of the artist today. now i get to read invisible man. woohoo.
i cant decided whether or not im excited about school starting. on one hand, i get to see people i like every day, which will be great. plus, im really excited about almost all of my classes. on the other hand, i actually have to DO stuff. no more watching movies all day.
ive been wondering about the gender studies ind study, because i havent heard anything from ms majerus or anyone about it since school ended, so i sent her an email. im hoping i havent just been forgotten.
man, i cant believe school is starting and im a senior.
today, i watched loony toons. i saw the episode with the big red monster thing, and the mad scientist that wants bugs bunnys brain. i dont know if i recognized because id seen it before, or if it was just a plot line that gets used a lot. but at the end, the mad scientist accidentally broke a bottle of ether, and then he and bug had a slow mo chase which was hilarious. i forgot how much i loved loony toons. its not at all like those new cartoons that arent funny(i sound really old and crumudgony when i say that.)
anway. tonight im going to watch my beautiful laundrette, and im looking forward to it. i saw liz at rentertainment, and she was renting a zillion movies. good ones. i was upset because they didnt have the one i wanted. it was checked out. sigh. but im looking forward to this one.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:20 PM |

 
what? did you just fall into her vagina?
today i went to esspresso to do summer reading and saw sasha, which was nice, but hes leaving so soon! i didnt get much reading done.
xc started, but we didnt run today. tommorrow, hes gonna kill us.
i went to borders also and i bought never mind the bollocks, because it was cheap and i thought i might like it. turns out, its amazing! i love it so much,which made me happy. yay sex pistols. i also downloaded wonderful songs and made a very cool mix cd which goes like this:
the weight(the band)
i will survive(cake)
some postman is grooving(tpotusa)
just a freind(biz markie)
be my yoko ono(bnl)
vincent obrien(m ward)
nicotine and gravy(beck)
the laws have changed(new pornographers)
my way(sid vicious)
desafinado(ella fitzgerald)
for once in my life(stevie wonder)
moonriver(that song from breakfast at tiffanys, written by some guy named andre rieu who has an ugly mullett)
theres also a new jane today, and im reading it. for some reason theyve "cleaned up" the magazine, and i want to know why. i liked it when they counted breasts and all that stuff! but its still good. they interview xtina(that cracks me up) and she likes marilyn! which makes me like her a zillion times better.
also: me and alison watched magnolia. brilliant brillaint. the sing a long wasnt that great, but it had good intentions. but other than that, perfect. the frog-rain was great. i love john c reilly!

- posted by Caitlin @ 2:06 AM |

 
the contrast of white on white
today i discovered that i cant actually park in the krannert parking lot, which ive been doing a lot, so i was really sad. but i did get a lot of reading done at espresso royale.
at dinner it was just me and mom, so we had mother daughter bonding time and i helped her pick out a dress for the black tie party shes going to. i cant believe we know people who throw black tie parties.
i watched my own private idaho with alison tonight, and i think she liked it, too, though we both agree that the shakespeare bits are really bad. but i discovered that my favorite scene, the campfire one, was written by river phoenix, which makes me love him even more.
tomorrow, im babysitting ALL day AND night, which is going to be excruciating. AHHHH. i hope it goes quickly. at least theyll be sleeping for part of it and ill be able to read portrait of the artist. i really need to finish this book.
i just heard from cordelias blog that the governer of new jersey is gay. wow, thats great! i mean, that he came out. tell me all about it, therese.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:51 AM |

 
i love you, and you dont pay me
ive seen two brillaint movies in the last 24 hours, and its great. the first was kill bill 2. the second was my own private idaho. the weird shakespeare part in the middle was weird and kinda sucked, but the rest was so wonderful. the campfire scene made me cry. river phoenix was amazing, hes just like james dean. he has the whole swagger and squint down. and the best part:
attention tourists: please do not laugh at the locals
i babysat today, so now i have money. and on friday ill be babysitting for basically the entire day (12:30 to midnight, with maybe a short break), so wish me luck. im really not looking forward to it, but at least ill be rich when im done!
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:57 AM |

 
some postman is grooving to all our LOVE LETTERS
im such a bad person. this guy from northland college caleed and asked me if it was still one of my college choices, and i said yes. i didnt have the heart to tell him that i wasnt interested at all, so i sadi i was, and that maybe i would visit. aaah! i hate it when colleges call me.
i went to rentertainment, and lo and behold they had 50 zillion copies of kill bill 2. i didnt even know it came out today, but i got it. AND, the woman recognized me, probably because she was there yesterday. i told her my account was under tony, and she said "right, i know." yay!
maayan and i made a cake for tom today, and it looked really good. the cake batter was good. maayan made me have some. i dont think ive ever had raw cake batter before, mom never lets us. if i get sick from salmonella, blame it on maayan. she also gave me some really cool purses and other stuff, which isnt helping my room cleaning.
im for some reason really tired. i got a very reasonable amount of sleep last night, and i just drank a coke. but im still about to fall asleep. this is so weird. i was very sleepy when the northland guy called, so i sounded really oout of it while talking to him, he probably thought i was weird.
- posted by Caitlin @ 6:38 PM |

 
he wasnt even an angel, just a liar with wings
ugh. tommorrow(today) i start running again and i know its gonna hurt.
i went outside and sat in the hammock(however you spell that) and tried to read portrait of the artist today, but mia was crying through the window, so i took her out to the backyard on her leash. it was a little silly. but she was very happy. momstly she just crouched around. i think she was scared of the koi.
the other night i watched this really good movie about a playwrite, joe orton. it had gary oldman and alfred molina in it, and gary oldman was so charming and cute. joe orton sounded interesting, so i looked him up and he turned out to be this big asshole. which was upseting.
batia showed me her mezuzahs the other day, and it was really cool. i want a mezuzah, but i dont think im qualified to have one. at her house, we looked at her bookshelf, and her family owns a book that was published in 1807. isnt that amazing? i held a book that was most probably owned by someone who was alive in the 1700s. i thought it was really cool.
also, college hopes are up again, so im in a good mood. its helped by george gershwin in my head.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:33 AM |

 
somewhere over the rainbow
i spent most of this morning thinking it was saturday,so when i found out it wasnt, i was very confused. when i still thought it was saturday, i thought i had to return my movies to rentertainment, so i needed to watch visitor q. i started to, but i watched the opening sex scene and decided that it wasnt a good idea to watch it when my parents were awake. so plans are to see it when mom and dad go to sleep tonight.
i did a lot of reading today because i want to finish my summer reading soon so that i can read naked lunch. ive finally figured out the movie(its not really an adaptation of the book so much as the story of william s burroughs writing the book.), which makes me even more excited to read it.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:56 PM |

 
exterminate all rational thought
ive been reading my old posts, and im very ashamed. i sound dumb. oh well. anyway.
i watched naked lunch today, and im not quite sure i got it, but i really want to read the book now. william s burroughs sounds so interesting.
today has been pretty boring, i despaired over colleges and watched a lot of vh1. its so bad for me, but i love hal sparks! hes such a bad actor in QAF, but hes so hilarious. tommorrow hopefully, i will be spnding time with actual people. i mean, people that i can actually spend time with. ok, i am not feeling eloquent, but you know what i mean.
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:41 AM |

 
kirikirikirikiriki
today was a good day. the guy at rentertainment recognized me--woohoo! thats always been my goal. then i went to esspresso royale and read portrait of the artist, which turns out to be really good when theyre not talking about politics. i think ill do it again tommorrow. i went to see the village with ayesha, and i guessed the twist. does that reflect well on me or badly on the movie? im not sure. i think m night needs to stop doing movies with twists in them, its getting too predictable.
anway, then we had physics barbecue, and cordelia and i talked about the next generation of physics kids. there are lots and lots of boys, but hopefully fara and shelby will be good freinds. plus, we painted our nails a very snazzy shade of red and got cuter butts in three weeks.
right now, im learning very interesting facts from vh1. did you know that molly ringwald and anthony michael hall LIKED eachother duriing the filming of 16 candles?? and then, during breakfast club, they had a RELATIONSHIP!! vh1 just told me this.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:11 PM |

 
deeper, deeper
i have just seen the most terrifying movie: audition. watch it only i you have someone to hold on to. i fell out of the sofa at the first really scary scene, and it just got worse. miike is a genius! i have to try and go to sleep now.
- posted by Caitlin @ 2:22 AM |

 
the internet is really really great
my computor broke. gaaaaaah! this sucks, it could potentially not be back for WEEKS. weeks, without my computor. :-((((. dad felt sorry for me and set up the imac that was just sitting around , but its in the tv room, and not really the same thing. still, its better than nothing, ill just have to start spending all of my time in here.
mom woke me up this morning because window washers were going to come in and wash my room. gggr. and when i got mad at her, she said something to the effect of "well, you dont need to be sleeping at 9:00 anyway." yes i do! i guess its good thing that my computors not in my room- im too scared to go up there now because there are people in the windows! my moms crazy. our windows are not that dirty that we need a windowwasher.
i want to make myself a salami and hebrew national mustard sandwich, but i think its still too early. i brought back 3 things of hebrew national mustard. yay! i think the check-out woman at zabars thought i was crazy, but this will last me ages.
in all that time yesterday that i didnt have my computor and so was very bored, i organized my college stuff. now i feel very, um, organized.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:40 AM |

 
then we put her in the bath tub and she was back to normal
aaah, i just got back fron new york, and how wonderful. we went to go see avenue q, which is even more wonderful on stage, and a yankees game which they lost and was very saddening, but we had the most amazing seats (and were possibly on tv, but i havent checked yet). there was lots of shopping, and i got cool clothes, including a skirt, im so proud of myself. and a very wonderful russian shirt and sweatsop free clothing that i feel very pc about. i got to see therese and i met chris and we went to brooklyn, which was cool, even though i couldnt buy the "just a freind" song. but i did buy more elliot smith and belle and sebastian. we went to see gozu, which was wonderfully brilliant, but very horrifying to see with a parent, ive been permanently traumatized. we saw grand central station and the statue of liberty, but only on our way to the ellis island, so i dont feel like such a tourist. im very dissapointed to learn that selman didnt go thru ellis island, though- i was having romantic thoughts about my great-great- grandfatehr walking those very halls, but alas, not. ive come to realize that i really really love pictures of normal people from a long time ago, because theyre very real. movie stars dont count, i like them for diffrent reasons. i got a book at the met(we went to the met. really really brilliant) which is just pictures taken of people in those little photo booths, and theyres this wonderful series of pictures of this guy in his mid twenties, it looks like from the early 30s, but im not sure, and he just has the most wonderful expression of his face. come over and remind me, and i will show him to you.
celebrites sighted: eli walach, donald trump,michael bloomberg, maybe stela mccartneys car. and most of them were in the same day. silvano sadly did not appear. and i went into tiffanys and thought about audrey hepburn. i love new york.
ive come home to a bunch of college applications,a dn i think its time i set up some organiztational system. i think ive finally come up with a list of schools to apply to, so im proud of myself. i keep on reminding myself that i still need to read my summer reading books, which is sad- i have so many other good books to read. but then i scold myself and say that invisible man and james joyce will be wonderful, too.
anyway-- six feet under!!! woohoo! i missed an episode, so i have TWO to watch tonight. yay!
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:10 PM |