i guess that i just dont know
i went to borders today and bought a pretty cd case and elliott smith and the talking heads. i feel so music-y. i also burned a bunch of stuff today and organized my NEW cd collection. woohoo! its very beautiful.
i really really want a cd by "i love you but ive chosen darkness", simply because that has got to be the best name ever, plus theyre good.
anyway, im sort of broke now, but theres lots of promise of money in the future, ie when i garden and mom pays me, so not really.
ive been having an urge to make a very cool collage lately, and i dont know why, but it makes me feel like claire, and thats not a bad thing at all. i think i might do that tonight because im bored and lonely, so i need something to occupy my time as i listen to all of my cds. so wish me luck on my art project, im off
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:07 PM |

 
ive spent my life trying to make up my mind
last night i had a dream that i was graduating- well, not really graduating, but doing the ceremony, becuase we did that the summer before your junior year. and everyone was either wearing orangey-red robes or pink ones, and they were wrapped around our heads. and all the graduating people lay down in chutes, alternating orange and pink. and then the chutes tipped and everyone would slide out. and some other stuff happened. i think i wore my prom shoes.
alison gave me sushi candy from japan that was sugar but had seaweed wrapped around it. ick. once i get the seaweed off, im gonna eat it.
im also in the mood for shopping, which is unfourtunate, because i have no money. but i have a gift certificate to borders, perhaps i will use it.

- posted by Caitlin @ 4:39 PM |

 
do you think i look indonesian?
i just saw farenheit 911, and it was really godd- i loved the part where he asked the congressmen to sign their kids up for the army- but it was also really maddening and deppressing. i wish i could vote.
anyway, i didnt want to go to sleep all deppressed, so i watched if these walls could talk 2, thinking it might cheer me up. the first one was so sad, i was afraid it was going to backfire, but then the second one had chloe sevingy in it, so it was automatically awesome, and the third had ellen, so it was hilarious, even though its a little weird to see ellen do a sex scene.
i was dissapointed today to discover that "dick-do" disease is not an invention of david sedaris, and i also learned that shopping at victorias secret with your mom is very embarrassing. good lessons.
anyway, its 3 in the morning, so good luck seeing me get up in the morning.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:11 AM |

 
eyes burning away through me
i can drive!! yay! its incredibly cool. call me or whatever and ill drive by your house and show off my beautiful lisence.
i miss all my chicago roomies, its not nearly as exciting here. but ive been watching i love the 90s, and its just getting to things i remember, like ren and stimpy, and the power rangers.
now im cleaning my rooms, supposidly,and listening to franz ferdinand.
anyway. mostly boring. except for my car.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:27 PM |

 
nobody talks like that!
i finished my reading at 57th street books, im so proud of myself! people laughed at the right places, and achy said that i did a good job. yay! im happy to have it done with, im glad i wasnt the worst one there. by far. ye, bobby with his cary grant voice and sat poetry was interesting, and phillip read what we all agreed was his worst peice. go figure. but then we had a class noodle party.
i went running with this one girl in my class, alex. im sad that im leaving just as im getting to know these people really well. alex is nice, and we talked about movies the entire run, mostly. she says i should see dancer in the dark. so i will.
achy is going to give us all her book of our choice. i asked for one of the ones i hadnt already bought. and shell sign them for us, too! yay.
this dude,something something, ill look it up later, came in and talked to us, and he reminded me of speed levitch. he was cool.
ooh, and i saw a book on growing marjiuana in your house. i was really tempted to buy it, i love that 57th sells books like that.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:14 PM |

 
its always better on holiday
today we had achinese food picnic and for some reason i ate a hot pepper. not all of it, but a significant bite. i turned purple and cried.anyway, i need to work on my greta story, because i think im gonna be reading it at 57th street books. wish me luck.
- posted by Caitlin @ 7:54 PM |

 
california here we come
i love love love franz ferdinand, they are my new favorite band along with modest mouse. and phantom planet and belle and sebastian are going pretty well, too.
class was so much fun today, i wish it wasnt ending. were just starting to really open up and have fun. today we had to write stories about some other member of the class, and philips story about me started with "caitlin never really got into the whole instant messenging thing." it was pretty funny. it also talked about how i like illini football. pretty funny.
im going to be very sad when this class is over because im really enjoying it, and i think im learning a lot. if i go here, ill definalty take another class from achy. or all of her classes, if theyre all this much fun. aparently in college, though, shes much harsher. oh well. its still really fun and im learning a lot. today achy said that my revision of my greta story was very "mature", and i think that was a compliment. but she said the end was bad, and that sometimes ending take lots of revisions, and i thought "i have six diffrent versions of this story ending." but i think this version is definatly best, it just needs some work. achy said that i need to stay there longer and sink my senses in.
but i was sad because she didnt reccomend me a book, like she did alomst everyone else.
anyway, we bought some candy and soure lifesavers are very good, but they scratch the top of my mouth.
- posted by Caitlin @ 3:48 PM |

 
im trying. im trying real hard to be the shepherd
i tried to add comments to my blog, and it doesnt look like theyve showed up yet, but sometimes its stupid and takes a while to react to changes. im hoping that a new post will do it. if it does, comment! please, ive tried to have comments for so long, and now im trying again.
my current favorite song:

Anthony, bullied at school
Get your own back now you are cool
Or are you scared you're bunking off though you're a toff
It's all gone wrong again, you've got Double Maths
But the teacher's got no control
The boys all run riot
You all stay quiet or you will die
Tony, the back of the gym
Smoke another one, your chances are slim,
'Cause here they come again
And they got you on the ground
You're tasting blood again
At least it's your own
When will you realise it doesn't pay
To be smarter than teachers, smarter than most boys
Shut your mouth, start kicking the football
Bang on the teeth you are off for a week, boy
You may as well take it in the guts, it could get worse
Just take it in the guts, it could get worse

its by belle and sebastian, who are wonderful. isnt that sad, poor kid. but it gets happier at the end. i have lots of good music, but yes alison, i acknowladge that im losing in the "new music" department, thats a competition i dont care too much about, im happy with mine. but i do want to burn some of you music when i get home.
greg kot, the rock critic for the chicago trib, came in and talked to our class today. he was very cool, and he made me want to be a journalist or a movie critic, though i guess thats also journalism. basically: newspaper=good. sometimes he writes for rolling stone so maybe i will see him in there. he also gave us his email address, but i dont know if he actually wants us to email him.
achy kept on calling on me in class because she said i was "on a roll today", but then i didnt say what she wanted me to, and i felt bad.
hes mu-a little older than me.
and i leave you with that, o best beloved

- posted by Caitlin @ 8:14 PM |

 
musollini is a meanie
we went to have etiopian ffod, which is weird but cool because there are no utensils, you eat with peices of bread. but on the train back, we saw the most interesting guy ever. he was telling this dude, i assume a freind of his, about all of his encounters with the police, very loudly. but the best part was how he told it. i can only compare him to those storytellers who come to elementary school-- he did voices and impressions of people and noises and everything. it was amazing, he was so interesting. and he was talking about all this interesting stuff and making interesting points about police and the justice system and stuff. i dont know if i agreed with him, but it was still really interesting. i wish i could find people like that when achy sends us out to spy on people. he made me wish i had paper to write stuff down on, or that i was a documentary film maker so i could make a movie about him. He told stories about getting a house call by the police for a misdermeanor, but they discover drugs in there and then its a felony. he didnt think that was fair. and he told a story about a guy going aroudn town somking pot, and the cops were following him,and he jumped on top of some womans car--not on the hood, on top-- and did all this crazy stuff, and sold 7 pounds of cocaine for 150 dollars, and then the police caught him and slapped him, and said they were arresting him for being "too quiet". i dont think im doing these stories justice, you really need him to tell them. he reminded me off the part in resivoir dogs were tim roth tells his drug story, because this dudes story was that vivid. then he got off the train and therese and caitlin and sarah wer esort of laughing about him, and i thought :how can you laugh at him? dont you see how incredibly interesting he is?"
now i have to work. eeh. if i finish in time, and i can go watch oceans 11
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:34 PM |

 
There are only two things more beautiful than a good gun--a Swiss watch, or a woman from anywhere. You ever had a Swiss watch?
im trying to work but not succeding. for some reason i convinced myself that i didnt have to do this till tommorrow(which is actually today) but i do.
ive also learned that i shouldnt write about people in my blog when ive just met them and then let them read it-- it will just make me feel stupid.
and its one more night in hollywood.
i alphabatized my cds. its very snazzy, but its gonna be hard to maintain. it starts with "alison and caitlins 60s and 70s sing along" and ends with weezer.
i also want to be a socialite or socialist.
anyway, im procrastonating alot. i thought maayan was on aim, and i imed her, and someone imed me back and said "i think the person youre looking for left. i guess she was on a public computor and forgot to log off. but then the person on the other end logged her off. but now im sad because i didnt get to talk to her.
also: i really want to see celluloid closet. remind me to rent it when i get home.
that was very random. now i need to pretend to work again.
- posted by Caitlin @ 1:19 AM |

 
accidentally in love
i just got back from the counting crows concert. it was so much fun. my first real concert, and it was really nice. we got there at noon, because it was free and outside and at the taste, and we sat around for 3 hours. then this bad band called the old 97s played, they wernt really that bad, except that the lyrics sucked and they played for an hour. then they might be giants played, and i HATE them. they played for an hour and a half, and they kept on saying they were about to leave, but didnt. it was so frusterating, because dinner ended at 8, so we needed to leave around 6:30, which the RAs thought would be plenty of time, but it wasnt because everyone(especially stupid TMBG) played for sooo long and it took the roadies 20 min to change the set. but counting crows were so good! it was really fun, and there were nice people. i gave one woman a tatoo with a marker(she was an improv actor, and she was ralking about auditioning for second city, but i didnt hear if she got in), and it was pretty, and there were a bunch of other nice people. there were also drunk people, some drunk frat boys. they got in a fight and the security people kicked them out. some other people got kicked out, too, and i couldnt figure out why. they looked very upset about it. there were also some mean people.
but all in all people were nice.
anyway, we missed dinner, and so were ordering pizza, and they hung up before we could order the "college special", so we have to pay 7 extra dollars.
me and caitlin and therese are sharing music, and so far i have coldplay and weezer and franz ferdinand, and im getting lots more. yay!
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:01 PM |

 
hey girl with the pretty face, welcome to the human race
we watched pulp fiction last night, and i noticed new stuff. granted, around your fifth viewing, the things you notice are less and less significant, but i thought i would share. first, slj playes jules and qt plays jimmy. so its jules and jim[my]. ok, and the other one was stupid, so im not going to write about it because people will make fun of me. but maybe if you watch it with me, i will point it out to you tastefully when it comes up.
a bunch of boys were playing ping pong, but they all stopped to watch the rapeing and medevil-on-uyour-ass scene, and then they left to play soccer. but only after they had provided a running commentary about what was going to happen next. boys are annoying [i hate men! i hate the internet!]
yes, and i just had a whole post about pulp fiction. way to go me
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:18 PM |

 
thats ok. i wouldnt remember me either
im rewriting my greta story, and i was playing with one of those flippy makeup cases with the mirrors in them. i looking in it, and then brought it close to my eye, really really close, and i could see the reflection of the mirror in the reflection of my eye. and because of the glare, it looked like my pupil. and i pulled the mirror in and out, so it looked like my pupil was dilating and contracting very very quickly. it was pretty cool.
i also learned today how homophobic the scientologists are, and it made me very upset. now im angry w/ tom cruise and john travolta, which sucks because im watching pulp fiction tonight(yay!). im going to have to forget about that while i watch the movie.
may i also say that i really really like kevin spacey. while im talking about celebrities im mad at, i thought i would mention how much i love him. a lot. in my class, we talked about him, when we were talking about how characteristics can change a characger, and we talked about how feminine he was. and its true. but thats not the only reason i like him.
also, i am loving the doors and elo and cake and some weird stuff who i dont understand in alisons handwriting, and fearing nosebleeds and blue-ice, or whatever that stuff is called.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:36 PM |

 
the world is going to kill you one day, you might as well enjoy it
so we were walking down to sign in for curfew and singing very loudly about how we werent wearing underwear(we were) and then the guy who smells like the staircase walked by and we laughed a lot.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:32 PM |

 
you look like david hasselhoff
who put the earmuffs on the cookie?
im supposed to be working, but instead im procrastinating w/ caitlin and therese and looking at stuff about the home at the end of the world movie and the requiem for a dream sight and eating all the candy my family sent me. im a very bad person, someone needs to remind me to work.
today i learned that achy has a pulitzer, but hse didnt seem very excited about it, but i think thats the coolest thing ever, i want to win a pulitzer.
tommorrow im watching pulp fiction and im very excited because i love it.
i had to write some lyrics for a song in spanish, and they were bad, and i also had to write a story based on the song and it was a little better. maybe if my class says nice things about it ill post it- its pretty short.
i also learned that uni is majorly missing out in class rings- i want one. with diamonds and onyx and white gold and a peace sign. i designed one and everything. but i bet it costs a zillion dollars. so thats dumb.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:07 PM |