my hearts in overdrive
man, im so happy i have nice roommates.
the other day in class, we were critiquing a story, and i said something, and then achy said "i was going to say the exact same thing as caitlin" and it made me feel smart.
tody, i had something due at noon, and i woke up at 2 and 5 last night, and both times i thought it was in the afternoon, and i had missed my assignment. so i got up and went to the computor, and started working. and then i thought "its dark out. its night." and i went back to sleep. twice. im so dumb.
i bought cheap cds yesterday. it was fun.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:57 AM |

 
all right all ready
today was more fun- im really enjoying my class. we had to make story ideas that illustrated the "formula" of good sotries, and then we read them to the class. mine was really dumb, but other than that, it was good.
i went out to dinner with my roommates therese and caitlin, and it was fun cause we talked about politics in a cute little noodle place. when i first meet people, im afraid to talk about politics, cause im afraid ill offend them, and my roommates definatly seemed like they might be republicans, but i was happy to see that they are at least somewhat liberal.
- posted by Caitlin @ 7:38 PM |

 
commit to commiting
Good luck, for your sake, I hope heaven and hell are really there, but I wouldn't hold my breath. You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death?

ive been listening to modest mouse. im almost supried that i like it so much. i guess its not the kind of music i listen to nirmally, and theres lots of stuff i would think that i don't like. but i really do like it. esp float on and the dance hall one. im glad i like it so much, cause i bought it.
class was really fun, not at all intimidating. Achy, my teacher is really cool. i learned how to pronounce her name(ah-chie), and then she told us all about herselfe. she also told us about this intresting thing, where all the jews in the spanish inquesition pretended to be catholic, and changed their names to catholic ones(she said that when you meet latinos with hyper-catholic names, theyre probably jewish), and practiced judaism in private. But theyre still doing it today. theres a whole name for latinos who pretend to be catholic, but are really jewish. and you would think that they would stop hiding, because theyre not being prosecuted anymore. i wish i remembered what they were called. and she said that lots of the kid dont know theyre jewish untill theyre older- their parents dont tell them untill theyre grown up that all the ceremonys theyve been doing in private are a seperate religion. achy says her brother was circumcised when he was 13.
i bought one of her books, cause shes really cool. she swears in the kind of way i really enjoy- not when shes upset, but to emphasize a point. she was telling us about this farm, and she said that the egg there were "warm, theyre so fucking fresh". i really enjoy that.
anyway, shes cool and the class is fun. now i have to work. my roommates all have hundreds of pages of reading to do tonight, but i just have to write a short story. well see how i do.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:20 PM |

 
im waitin for my man
yay! today was fun. i continued to have fun, i bought the velvet underground(banana) and modest mouse cds at virgin records downtown. that was fun, i havent actually bought cds for a while, so im very happy with them. i learned how to play spades, which it turns out is really fun. i met this guy who had taken my class last year, and her described the teacher as a "cuban jewish lesbian" and said that she would tear your work apart, but that everyone came out of it much better writers. now im nervous. my first class is tommorrow.
today was also more shopping. this time fruit and school supplies. shopping for fruit ive discovered is really fun, and its not as expensive as you would think.
we also went on a walking tour of hyde park, and now my feet are killing me.; the balls of my feet especially hurt. i hope they heal overnight.
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:17 PM |

 
early in the evening...
im in chicago. its nice. the dorms are comfy(for dorms), but ugly. my roommates are nice, and after many akward pauses, we have been getting along well. we went shopping at walgreens, and it made me feel so grown-up, even though i just bought a bunch of snack food. BUT, i did not buy the marshmallows or anything, i bought the "healthy" snack food.
a year or two ago on tv, i saw this show about lying. it said that the average person lies some huge number of ties a day(i forget the exact number, but more than you would think). i didnt believe it at the time, but i have realized today that its true. you really do lie about little things just to make onversation(please tell me im not the only person who does that).
everyone here is from all over the place. my roommates are from houston, new jersey, and LA. on my floor, there are only 2 other people, brothers, who are from IL. i would have thought there would be more.
anyway, im having fun, im happy im not lonley, and tommorrow, were gonna skip breakfast in the cafateria and go to a cafe. yay!
- posted by Caitlin @ 12:43 AM |

 
last night, i had a dream...
...uni had been closed and all of the students had been added to some other high school. it was awful. all these formerly nice people had turned mean, and i keot getting lost and i was late to every class. when i tried to explain to the teachers why i was late, they didnt care. i took this one class where we drew comics for the school newspaper, and it was taught by britney spears. i thought "most people would be really excited to have a class taught by her, but i guess we're just used to it here." i also called her some diffrent name, but i dont remember what it was. and i went down to lunch, and at one table all the volleyball players were sitting, and they were wearing shirts that had spanish numbers on the back, and they were sitting in order of their numbers. and i thought "at uni, every one was really nice to eachother, but here we've formed such stereotypical cliques. theyre like cheerleaders!" and i was just really unhappy.
anyway, ive been packing.
the MOST exciting thing is that my freind meghan, from CA, imed me. we havent really kept in touch, because neither of us are very good penpals, but when i was out there last summer, we still got along really well. anyway, she imed me, and it turns out, she is at u chicago, too!! shes in a diffrent program(animal behavior), but still. i know i havent been incredibly enthusiatic in the past about having people i know there, but this is diffrent. we so rarely get to see eachother, it will be really exciting.
- posted by Caitlin @ 10:18 PM |

 
i just want to be wonderful
today i watched a biopic of marilyn. it was awful. it made her out to be a shallow, slutty, schitzophrenic, dumb-blonde. i was so angry, i dont know why i watched it. plus, it was just a grenerally bad movie, with gratuitous slow-mo shots and a bette davis who looked like a drag queen. but i cried. i cried when she miscarried, and i had to turn it off when she sang 'happy birthday mr president'- too sad, especially when the guy introduced her as 'the late marilyn monroe'.
i woke up around 11:30 today, and stayed in bed untill 2. thats why im still up now. i need to reajust my sleeping habits- this is getting too crazy.
- posted by Caitlin @ 2:06 AM |

 
catnip? its not mine, i swear!
today was much, much better.
my new goal in life: to go to africa. i dont understand. in africa, you get monkeys in your backyard, and here we get squirrels. how did it work out that way? why are there no interesting animals in the us? ah, well, i guess the solution is to go there and see them.
today was a very jewelry day. i made lots of jewelry. some of it is very nice.
it was also a good day because i got out of gardening because it was raining. yay! i really want to quit this job. i know its a good job, and my moms paying me well, but its not worth it to be forced to do something i really dont like for 2 hours every day for the rest of the summer. im thinking of working a little longer to build up some money, and then quiting. man, this sucks.
but oh well, back to my good day and all the fun i had with friends. yay!
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:45 PM |

 
sincerly, the breakfast club
i woke up around 1:00 today, so its been a very short day. hmmm. however, its been a good day. i actually made contact with people, which was nice, considering ive spent most of my summer so far sitting around watching tv and reading harry potter. sigh, im so boring. but tommorrow, eh?
actually, tommorrow, ive got to garden for 2 hours and 45 min. when mom asked me to garden for some money, i thought it would be fun, you know? itd be easy and id actually have some money to do stuff. i didnt know it was gonna turn into a tyranny.
- posted by Caitlin @ 9:39 PM |

 
always do the right thing
alisons in japan and elis at camp, so im an only child. its very lonely and boring. and tommorrow dad leaves, so its just gonna be me and mom. this sucks. maybe we can have some mother-daughter bonding.
- posted by Caitlin @ 8:33 PM |

 
lets get it on
god, i love movies. like you didnt know that already. but im feeling especially movie-y today, because i went to see hp3, and now im reading about bad education, which im DYING to see. im reading reviews and finding out too much stuff about the plot, but i cant help it. and i hear its not opening in the us untill the end of the year, which is unbearable.
ok, im done blabing about movies...lalala
i burned some cds today, one thats mostly nina simone, plus a solomon burke and a mrvin gaye. its great! i love nina simone, especially when shes trying to speak french, or singing that "other woman" song, which is so cute!

- posted by Caitlin @ 7:20 PM |

 
hence, like a virgin
today i went to barnes and noble, and they were having a buy 2, get 1 free sale, so i did. then i started to feel a little guilty because i was completly broke after i bought them, but oh well. i think it was worth it. and i can always make more money- moms paying me to work in the garden.
today at dinner my brother started "rapping". it was awful and funny at the same time. i really hope this is just a short phase, and this doesnt become his normal dinner time conversation.
"mr brown? that sounds too much like mr shit"
i dont think that it's really hit me that this is summer and i can stay up as late as i want. usually over summer i adapt to staying up till about 2 and waking up around noon, but i havent started that yet. oh well, its still the VERY begining(yay!), so i have lots of time to change my sleeping habits
12 days till sfu
- posted by Caitlin @ 11:03 PM |