It's all just makebelieve
Saturday, January 31, 2004
scott and aida had thier baby around 4:00 today(yesterday, actually) and named her farrah, which is a really pretty name, i think, hopefully, i get to go visit her tommorrow... im excited
i just got back from babysitting two of the sweetest little kids ever- neil and maggie. they're so adorable- neil is 6 and maggie is 3, and neil is just such a sweet older brother to her, it makes me really happy. you can just see him now, in high school, defending her from evil boys- so nice. but, strangely, when he asked me how to spell things like "teacher" and "whole", i started to doubt my own spelling abilities...
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Friday, January 30, 2004
do i get to meet molly ringwald?
i feel like the coolest person in the whole world sitting here in my wonderous bed drinking coke and eating cheezits. i dont know why this is especially cool-seeming to me. i think its because it makes me feel like one of those great charectors from 80s teen movies, who, even though they are having "problems" still manage to be the coolest people i have ever seen. i mean, the rooms! their rooms are so stereotypically teenager-y, and i aspire to have a room like that. having five coke cans sitting on my desk makes my room just that much closer to thiers...
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Thursday, January 29, 2004
suits and sunglasses
had fun with jon voight today. also, discussed how my mom is like that charector in best in show who dated everyone ever, and they keep running into people she dated. thats my mom. she dated a boy named dale bebermeier. is that not the best name ever? i also read hannah bs story which reminded me immensly of a QT movie, where they wore dark suits and sunglasses indoors, and people get killed while their buddies are in the bathroom... thats the kinda movie for me.
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004
i am enhumored
alisons blog is so enhumorous. i went in to tell her, which made me laugh, which made me cough. then i started making weird hair ball noises as i tried to stop, which made me both laugh and cough harder. it failed, and i had to leave the room.
you want to know how me and alison are the dumbest(and i mean this is the best possible sense, alison dearest) people i know? we talk on aim, when we are literally feet apart from eachother. then, if we start to talk about particuarlly juicy things, ill go into her room to talk to her, and shell IM her comments back to me, and i have to go back and see what she wrote.
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everything i know is wrong...
you know how the greeks thought they knew what was going on in the world, but really, they were way wrong, and now we laugh at them for being stupid. in a thousand years, that will be us. because with all the technology we have now, we think what we know is true, but when they have better technology, theyll realize that what teachers have been teaching to us as fact is wrong. then they will laugh at us. and i dont want to know something wrong, why do i have to learn something wrong. like voltage. voltage is not a thing, it does not exist, you cant see it. so whos to say that in thousands of years, theyll realize that what we think is voltage doesnt really exist... im just so frusterated with stupid things that DONT ACTUALLY EXIST
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K-Billys Supersounds of the Seventies...
my current favorite song:
Lookin' back on the track for a little green bag,
Got to find just the kind or I'm losin' my mind
Out of sight in the night out of sight in the day,
Lookin' back on the track gonna do it my way.
Out of sight in the night out of sight in the day,
Lookin' back on the track gonna do it my way.
Lookin' back
Lookin' for some happiness
But there is only loneliness to find
Jump to the left, turn to the right
Lookin' upstairs, lookin' behind, yeah!
Lookin' for some happiness
But there is only loneliness to find
Jump to the left, turn to the right
Lookin' upstairs, lookin' behind.
Lookin' back on the track for a little green bag,
Got to find just the kind or I'm losin' my mind
Out of sight in the night out of sight in the day,
Lookin' back on the track gonna do it my way.
Lookin' back on the track for a little little green bag,
Got to find just the kind or I'm losin' my mind,
Alright.
Lookin' for some happiness
But there is only loneliness to find
Jump to the left, turn to the right
Lookin' upstairs, lookin' behind.
dude, so excellent. it makes me really happy. the guy just sounds so cool, for lack of a better word. its just great. and then it gets all dance-y when he says "lookin for some happpiness/ but there is only lonliness to find", and then it gets all cool-ish again when his voice sorta cracks on "turn to the ri-ight". im just so happy listening to it.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Look, I got a snazzy title
i read grinnells recruitment newspaper, unfourtunatly titled "ins and outs". obviously, the people who titled it dont have dirty minds like mine... anyways, there were 3 articles about diversity, 2 of them about political diversity, and i thought, gee, if i went there, i would be the most undiverse person on campus. im feeling very undiverse at the moment...that makes me sad sometimes, to be so undiverse. then i think- im left handed! im diverse-er than 90% of the population! my little leftys desk calander has made me think about being left handed, and taught me things suck as "sinstral means left handed." must say, not what i hoped for when i bought the thing, but it has raised my lefty awareness level considerably.
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this is the worlds funniest joke(other than umas tomatoe joke), but also not pc, so beware:
so, theres this man, and he has three daughters. one day, his first daughter comes up to him, and says "daddy, why am i named rose?" and he says "because when you were born, a rose fell on your head." the second one comes up to him and says "daddy, why am i named violet?" and he says "because when you were born a violet fell on your head." then his third daughter comes up to him, and says "uuuuuuuh.", and he says "shut up, cinderblock."
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oscar noms today! im so excited for keisha castle hughs and johnny depp, good for them, and also sofia coppola, tho i havent seen her movie yet. must say, im feeling sad at myself that i didnt go see in america when i had the chance, instead went to go see cold mountian, which was unexpectidley(tho i support the decison) snubbed. must say, tho, i voted for in america, and now look what the academy liked! ha!, i was right. so my new list is: in america, lost in translation. must say, tho, good job academy, even if you mysteriously overlooked lord of the rings for cinematography.
well, im done playing the critic here. lets just say that im looking forward to the oscars.
today, my dad woke me up, and i yelled at him that i wasnt going to school. then he left, and for a while i celebrated because i thought that he had decided that i was too sick to go to school, but it turns out that he just assumed that iwas getting up. not so. i was sleeping. then he came in and yelled at me agian to get up, so i did. then, i had another breif fantasy about them canceling school, and me getting to stay home and watch pulp fiction and requiem for a dream, but it was not so. sad for me.
wrote an essay in english class about how im an imitation of everyone i know. it was good, if i do say so myself...
picked up my pictures from the picture place. they have pictures going all they way back to my summer in CA. i succesfully told the woman behind the counter what i wanted, without paniking, and she gave me what i wanted. hurray for good people skills! must say, most of them are terrible, esp the ones i took of kitty dearest to fill up the roll(she doesnt photograph well). CA looks ok, tho, except i got my finger in some of the pictures. and most of maayan getting her hair cut is good, too, except, sadly, the before picture.
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Monday, January 26, 2004
i stole this from ayeshas livejournal, cause im bored:
LAST LONG CAR RIDE: to memphis over winter break
LAST KISS: 1st grade (:-( )
LAST GOOD CRY: a week or two ago... it was silly
LAST MOVIE SEEN: resivoir dogs(ahhhh! great great great!)
LAST LIBRARY BOOK CHECKED OUT: i dunno
LAST BEVERAGE DRANK: coke
LAST FOOD CONSUMED: marzipan
LAST CRUSH: dude, no way im gonna tell you...
LAST PHONE CALL: dad, when he was in FLA
LAST TV SHOW WATCHED: alias!!
LAST SHOES WORN: ex-running shoes that i wear every day
LAST CD PLAYED: QT collection
LAST ITEM BOUGHT: soda from vending machine
LAST ANNOYANCE: homework
LAST ICE CREAM EATEN: vanilla w/ maple syrup. unfourtunatly, it was too long ago
LAST SODA DRANK: coke
LAST TIME WANTING TO DIE: watching the trailer to 'triplets of bellville", from happiness
LAST TIME SCOLDED: a few hours ago when my dad claimed that the cordless phone was in my room... its not
LAST SHIRT WORN:CGLL 5k shirt, i think its elis cause its a small
LAST WEBSITE VISITED:ayeshas livejournal
TEN THINGS YOU WISH YOU HAD:
1. lots of time to watch movies
2. resivoir dogs dvd
3. double indemnity dvd
4. all my homework done
5. no school tommorrow
6.gouda
7. ice cream
8. a kitten
9. a pony
10. an electric guitar
NINE THINGS YOU LOOK FORWARD TO:
1. the weekend
2. triplets of bellville at the art
3.sleep
4. watching harold and maude in cw
5. having ayesha come live with me for 2 weeks (maybe)
6. spring break
7. my cat coming to cuddle with me
8. expanding my musical horizons
9. alias next week
EIGHT THINGS YOU LIKE TO WEAR:
1. my fedora!!!!!
2. my courderoy pants
3. my snazzy red coat
4. my blue mens gap shirt
5. my other blue mens gap shirt
6. pajamas
7. cozy toe socks
8. my grandmas marathon sweatshirt
SEVEN THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. when people stand in front of you in the hall and just stop and have no idea that other people exist and just generally hold up traffic
2. my brother
3. my brothers freinds
4. when people say mean things about marilyn or just generally laugh at her expense
5. when people make fun of the yankees just to see me react
6. homework
7. good actors in bad movies
SIX THINGS YOU SAY MOST DAYS:
1. uuuuh
2. dude
3. oh, yay
4. my kitty is cute
5. i hate homework
6. woohooo
FIVE THINGS YOU DO EVERY DAY:
1. get on aim
2. watch tv
3. do homework
4. sleep
5. cuddle wiht my supercute cat
FOUR PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH:
1. im just gonna say everyone, so that i dont offend people
2.
3.
4.
THREE MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. pulp fiction
2. some like it hot
3. the godfather
TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT THE MOMENT:
1. little green bag
2. hoo-ga-cha-ca song
(3.) bang bang
ONE THING YOU LOVE THE MOST:
1. me (i wish. really, i dont know...)
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in the half hour or so since my last post, i have:
1)researched QT on the web, discovering that he has plans for a new movie, inglorious bastards, but no plans for a 'vega bros" movie. sad.
2) been reintroduced to fire and rain. i knew it before, buit never connected the name with the song. quite excellent song, tho.very sad.
3) read some gay blogs. and some escort blogs. actually, just one of each.
4) learned that we(my family) will be eating dinner in the TV room so we can watch alias
5) done no homework. poo for me.
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im listening to QT. QT is my new favorite director and Tim Roth is my new favorite actor. or maybe Harvey Keitel. or James Franco. he looks like James Dean, so thats a plus on his side. i love so many people! i hope al doesnt feel crowded out-hell always be number one.
speaking of QT-Resivoir Dogs!!!! ahhhhh, what a good movie! im so in awe of QT, is he not the most amazing person ever? i could just gush about him forever, but ill spare you... my gushings not very intresting.
im feeling weird feelings today because i swore a lot, something i dont normally do. well, mostly i quoted the marcellus wallace speech from pulp fiction, but then i also told mark to "fuck off", i must say that i did this only after he told me to fuck off, i would never do something like that unprovoked, but still, should i be proud of this? it was a good feeling, i guess, very cathartic, to use mr rayburns word. sometimes i swear in my head, actually, i do it a lot, but i still have troubble admiting that i like to tell people to fuck off. oh well.
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Friday, January 23, 2004
GAAAA! may i just say that I HATE MRS RIDENOUR. i hate her, hate her, hate her. god, what a terrible person, im gonna go... errrg. you do not need to act in plays to be a good director. just because someone can act doesnt mean theyll be a good director and writer. GOD! i HATE her. im gonna go have a talk wiht her, but im already betting that it wont work. AAAAAAAAA! im really, really mad here, in case you couldnt tell.
anyway, trying to lighten it up here, me and alison went to go see the company at the art today. we were gonna see 21 grams, but it left. :-( but we were happy to see the company. and, my god, james franco, hes like james dean reincarnated. hes my new celebrity crush. but, but, im not even at the most exciting news yet! triplets of bellville is coming next! yaaay! you have no idea how great the trailer was. me and alison died, it was so good, so perfect, we were dying from perfection. im so excited! feb 6, everyone. the nice guy who works there gave me and alison posters of triplets and the company, i guess he had extras, so i put them up in my room, and theyre very pretty.
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Thursday, January 22, 2004
today i went to the pro-choice rally on the quad to see maayan give her speech. it was freezing, but she was really good! i was so impressed. shes so involved. i really would like to get involved in someting that i care about, but i dont know how. i wanted to volunteer at the humane society, but they wouldnt let me cause im too young. thats such a stupid rule.
today, ive been having speaking problems. like, i cant get words out of my mouth. i say "then...she...um...well" its sad. i hate feeling ineloquent.
im also rejoicing over new music found- QT collection! ahh, its so good. i really love the bang-bang song, and the hug-a-cha-ca song, which reminds me of the aquarium fish in finding nemo. you know, the part where they chant and make nemo "shark bate", and they go "shark bate, hoo haha, shark bate, hoo haha", and then that poor little fish says all by himself "shark bate hoo..." and then realizes no one is saying anything but him. that reminds me of me, it makes me laugh. that was kinda a tangent. i started out typing about one thing, and when i was done with the sentence, i was thinking of something else... oh well, you can sort it out.
it was also both maayans and mr raybs birthday today. maayan is 18! ahhh, that seems old, and then i think, no, wait, thats maayan, and i realize that it isnt actually that old... mr rayb got his office and classroom decorated by the birthday elves, heehee. birthdays are fun
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Wednesday, January 21, 2004
eli gave me my pulp fiction cd back, and when i opened it, there was the QT collection cd in there, so im listening to it. good stuff. now i just need to see the movies...
today in cw, i wrote a story about this waiter, and uma thurman comes into his resturaunt. is this just a little to obviously a fantasy? i mean, how self-centerdly obvious do you think it is to write a story where the main charector meets this actress who you(me) would love to meet in real life? is that too fan-fiction-y? i havent decided yet...
tonight at dinner my brother(also eli) gave us a monolouge about all the william sleator book plots and then quized us on latin words. god, my family is so boring.
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Tuesday, January 20, 2004
ah, good day. i wore my hat to school, it was great, but people kept calling my hat "crazy" because it was crazy hat day, and i told them "i am not wearing my hat because of hat day, im wearing it because it's cool." i hope i cleared that up for them.
i read a story outloud in creative writing today, like i promised eli i would. of course, i got strangely nervouse, which happens when i read stuff in class, even though i know all these people. im just weird that way. my story was ok, i guess, but when i paraphrased it for alison, my paraphrase was better than the actuall story its self. oh well, i guess it was just a first draft.
we went to that euro food mart on the way home from school, and the guys there had such cute european accents, and they were so nice, but then i found out that they were an evil offspring of world harvest, so now i dont like them because they should be nice to world harvest because it was there first. but we did get gouda. yum.
im feeling sad because eli has my pulp fiction cd, so i have nothing to listen to. im so single minded, i listen to one cd over and over, and i dont want to listen to anything else, no matter how good the royal tennennbaums cd is(and its very good).
im putting off doing my measly two little sheets of health for no reason. im hoping someone will get on aim, i guess, and ill talk to them. doesnt look like thats gonna happen.
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Monday, January 19, 2004
well, i have nothing to do. actually, i do. homework. but i dont want to do it. id rather post, even though i have nothing to say. i can just talk and talk. its kinda cool. but you know whats sad? i read alisons blog, and shes ELOQUENT! i dont know how to be eloquent. well, maybe i do, but i dont know how to do it without sounding stuck up. i cant do it naturally. i think when i talk naturally(and write), i just sound like a little fourth grader blabing on and on. i think thats why my in class writing in creative writing is so bad- i dont have a chance to go back and rewrite it. but, i need to write something good- eli cornerd me into promising to read something in class by the end of this week. hmm, deadlines... ick. i can already tell that ill end up reading something terrible just because i have to
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yay!im back from kansas, finally, i survived the flight. good for me. i listened to david sedaris, which was great, and i crocheted. now my scarf is long.
in kansas, i bought a new hat. not just any hat. a FEDORA!!! it is by far the coolest thing i own, and im wearing it to school tommorrow. its really really cool. i love it. anyway. that was by far the best thing about the trip. i also bought horn-smurf. we were at this museum, which was pretty boring, but in the gift shop, they had this whole thing of little plastic smurfs. it was so cool! most of them played instruments, and me and alison wanted to get a smurf band, but they were 3 dollars each, and our parents werent willing to pay for them. but we will always remember the day that we almost got a smurf band. but anyway, i couldnt resist horn-smurf, so i bought him.
also: we went to go see big fish. ahh, ewey. hes so great. it was a really good movie, i cried. even my brother liked it, which isnt necessarily a good thing, but it is in this case.
also, i finished my book, girl with a pearl earring. it was good, very entertaining. it wasnt partiurarly amazing, i didnt spend the whole time in awe of her writerly brilliance, like i do with people like michael cunningham, but it wasnt very entertaining, and now i want to see the movie.
so. im finnnally home. kansas wasnt exactly the way that i wanted to spend this weekend. i mean, i love my grandparents, that kinda comes with having them, but theyre such stereotypical midwestern conservative christians, and im always afraid im gonna say or do something wrong. its just weird. but, were home! yay. i just went and picked up my kitty from the kennel, and shes happy. that makes me happy.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2004
man, i really do have no life. but, i have no homework, and nothing to do, and i was just talking to alison about her top 10 favorite movies ever. so i decided to make a list, too. call me a ork, but i love movies and i love making lists, so here, in the order i think of them, are my top 10 movies:
the godfather
some like it hot
pulp fiction
double indemnity
the royal tennenbaums
well, i can only think of 5. after that, i think movies get more lumped together, and i dont want to pick them out. anyway. that was fun. and really pointless.
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well, look at that. my blog still works. thats good. im amazed, really. this is such a boost for my self confidence. it's like being published! wow. well, not quite, but close enough for me. i dont have high standards.
you know whats sad? today, in english class, i told the matzo ball soup joke, and no one laughed. no one! i was so ashamed. i think its a funny joke, but no one but me and alison seem to get it. go figure.
you knw what else is sad? next year, ill be really lonely. i mean, ill still have freinds, but lots of my freinds will be in college. and ill try to keep in touch with them, but im terrible about doing that. like my freinds from fifth grade in california. that was one of my best groups of freinds ever, we had so much fun. and i miss them, and think about them a lot, but im just so terrible about keeping in touch, and when i do remember, it feels akward because i havent talked to them in so long. it is just generally a bad situation.
but, despite all this bad stuff, im in a good mood, because i have no homework, and im listening to the pulp fiction soundtrack, which is really cool, esp cause it has DIALOUGE FROM THE MOVIE!!! isnt that so cool? i think it is. so ive been listening to that lately.
speaking of movies, you know what i want to see? big fish. and all about my mother. i thought talk to her was so good, and everyone tells me i should see that. but i want to see it on a night when my parents arent home, because, well, they have a knack for walking in during sex scenes in movies, and from what ive heard, i REALLY dont want them to walk in on that movie.
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Tuesday, January 13, 2004
yes! my blog works. this is happy for me. and hopefully happy for you, too. anyway. today: stupid orchestra concert. it went terribly, but i was happy to see that i was listed as "principle" horn. is that concieted of me? probably. oh well. i was hoping to watch alias after i got back, but my dad has work to do, and i dont want to watch it without him.
you know who's awful? roger clemens! i loved him, and he signed my hat, and i have a picture of me and alison and eli with him, and he was so great, and when he said he was retiring, i was sad, and i cried at his last pitch. and he siad that he wanted to be in the hall of fame as a yankee, and then, he comes out of "retirement" to play with houston. how terrible. im conflicted as to whether i should hate him or still love him. oh well. actually, not oh well. it sucks. SUCKS! im mad. what a terrible thing to do.
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Monday, January 12, 2004
well, im trying the blog thing again. my last attempt failed miserably, i couldnt get it to post, but hopefully this will work better. we'll see.
anyway. today: i got a new bed. that's great because my old one was broken and falling apart. this new one is cool, but it's really big. it overpowers my room. im hoping my room will grow into it. and i had to rearrange my furniture to make it fit, so i feel like im in some weird room that isnt mine. hmm. but it is a nice room.
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